Their Queen | BTS x Reader [DISCONTINUED]

CH.22 (M)

TW: Strong language, smut

Namjoon was pissed.

Although he has been silent throughout the whole ride home you could tell that inside he was seething. It was the way he would tightly clutch the steering wheel till he knuckles turned white, how his features hardened and how his eyes lost their warmth.

Your chest felt tight seeing him that way. You wanted to talk to him about what happened but you were also hesitant to bring it up.

You just wrapped the coat he gave you closer to your body and leaned on the window with a sad sigh.

When you arrived back home, you exited the sports car and walked out of the garage on your way to the main house. On your way to the entrance you started feeling emotional and scared all of a sudden.

Looking at the mansion, it wasn't just a house where you were a temporary guest anymore. It was now your home. A home that you shared with seven men. Seven men who you deceived. Seven men you were sent to kill.

Your heart throbbed painfully in your chest. You clutched your chest, hoping that maybe that would ease the pain you were feeling. Tears began flowing from your eyes as you sobbed silently.

You were so scared.

You were so scared of losing everything, of losing them. You let out a little chuckle in between your sobs. It's now so funny to you how you initially thought you could get away with neglecting your responsibilities and still be with them.

You were being delusional and so fucking stupid.

And what just happened was a damn good wake up call to reality.

Just as you were about to open the door, Joon's large hands grabbed a hold of yours to stop you from opening the door. You turned to face the tall male who frowned upon seeing your tear stained face.

Without a word he pulled you into his arms and embraced you. You clutched the back of his shirt and started sobbing uncontrollably in his chest. He patiently held you in his arms and pet your head often as a way to comfort you while you soaked his shirt with your tears.

You felt so vulnerable in this moment. You felt safe and secure in his strong arms that held you and provided you with warmth. It pained you to believe that there was a chance you could lose something so precious.

" Joon, I'm so scared. I'm so scared that I think I might lose my mind I- I can't- I'm so afraid I might lose you all.." you sobbed in his chest and you felt his hold on you tighten.

" C'mon babe who said anything about you losing us? Whatever happens we'll always stick together ok? We will never leave you, I will never leave you. No matter what. I promise "

You don't know if Joon just said that to make you feel better or if he genuinely meant it. Regardless, you took those words of reassurance to heart. So you nodded your head but that didn't seem to satisfy the tall male.

" Come on baby look at me, I wanna look at you"

You look up at him as he looked down at you with those warm eyes you've been yearning to see the whole journey home. His used his thumb to swipe off your tears and kissed your forehead.

" What did that old bastard say to you to make you so frightened little one?" He asked softly.

This was a question you were dreading to answer all night. What can you say?

Looking into his eyes, you couldn't bring yourself to lie. But you also couldn't bring yourself to tell the truth. You felt shitty.

But you had to tell him something.