Beautiful Wiccan (On HIATUS)

Acceptance

Gulf's heart pounded as He kissed Mew, thrilling the thread between them. It was a slow, sweet kiss that filled both with warmth. The string at their hearts pulled tighter and tighter as if screaming for more. When the pull between them felt impossibly needy, asking for more than both could physically give it, everything suddenly went slack. It was like a light switch had turned off. The pull was gone in its place Gulf felt Mew's heart beating fast, As if it's scared, It's frightened of something.

Gulf's lips left Mew's. He looked at Mew. Mew's expression was slowly replacing his mask of being emotionless, rigid. It was a mask of a person who wanted to break free but was also trying hard to be tied to darkness. At that moment, Gulf knew He had to do something or else it would again go back to square one. Hence he let out an embarrassed laugh and said, "So, um...I don't really know what to say right now. You taste like chocolate buttercream, I know we need to talk about things, lots of things."

Gulf saw Mew's hesitation and in a soft voice said, "I'm so damned sorry for the way I've been acting right now. But I don't know When, How you were already inside my heart."

Taking one of Mew's hands, Gulf pressed His palm over his pounding heartbeat and said, "But you will always be in here. Your name is carved so deep, a million years also cannot erase it. This kiss is everything. It's love and regret and apology. Passion and sex, friendship and promise. It's want and need and yearning. So please don't Stop Me. Don't stop Yourself. Dont Stop Us....."

Mew kept on looking at Gulf. It was true that He had stopped having any sort of emotions ages ago. He had stopped Himself from having them. He still wanted to stay away from all these things. He was very sure that all these words or as they call feelings were useless, But something was not matching up with his views. Something was wrong. Something was not right but it also felt good for the very first time. For the first time He felt something. For the First time it gave warmth rather than coldness.

Mew felt Gulf's lips soft and warm and sweet with chocolate. But the moment He realised this it shocked him. As if it short-circuited his brain and for a moment he couldn't breathe.

Seeing Mew spaced out, Gulf then hugged Him and stayed that way for some more time. After a few minutes, Gulf felt Mew's arms around Him. Mew was just not hugging Him but was also trying to get hold of Gulf's scent.
Mew unknowingly said, "You smell of wildflowers and sunshine".

Gulf buried himself more into Mew's broad chest. He felt Himself soft against Mew's manly chest. But Mew was not in the right state. Mew was trembling in Gulf's arms. Feeling Mew's slight panic, Gulf kissed Mew's forehead. Gulf poured all His love in this kiss. It was a kiss of promise to never abandon.

As Gulf kissed Mew's forehead, Mew felt a rush of something sweet and innocent flooded His senses. No one had ever affected Him this way. No one had ever smelled like sunshine. No one had made Him question what was real? When He met Gulf's eyes, the anger that had been there was gone, replaced by something much more complex.

Gulf then guided Mew across the room and into a large chair near the fireplace. Kneeling in front of Mew, He cupped one cheek in a strong, warm hand, and met His gaze with a longing look. Shaking His head as He could quite understand what was going on in Mew's Heart He said, "You know whenever we are down with harsh words thrown at us, King would always say, People give up too soon on dreams and hope, but both are always there we only need to keep our eyes open. Even if we do great work there would be someone who won't appreciate it. So why should we give up on our dreams and hope? Even if You still deny My love, I shall not stop having hope of us being together. I shall keep on dreaming about Us. As for the Kiss, all I can say is, I wanted to kiss you. I can't explain Why? I have no excuses."

Mew tried to push Gulf's caressing hand away.

Mew with a sad tone said, "I can't help but think....."

He started, But then stopped. Knowing that He shouldn't say it. Knowing, somehow, that it was useless, He said, "Why are you doing this? Why? What If?...."

Gulf knew what Mew was trying to say, Hence He said, "Why not!!!! So What If!!!!"

Mew looked at Him puzzled. Gulf with a bitter half smile touched Mew's lips and said, "You are asking me Why right! Then My answer is "Why not? You are asking What If? To that My answer is So What If? Why am I doing this? Why am I in love with you? To these questions, My answer is Why can't I do this! Why can't I fall in love with you! What If It brings Pain? What If It's the Wrong Thing to do? To these questions, I would say, "So What if it brings Pain. It shall also bring happiness too! So What If It's the wrong thing! It's also the most beautiful and purest thing too! You don't have to do anything. Just let me come closer... and stay right there..."

Mew was dazed when he heard Gulf. He never thought someone would be so True with His heart. For a moment Mew felt Gulf to be more mature than his age. After hearing Gulf, Mew felt an unbearable need to touch Him. He tried to speak, but no words came. He couldn't form thoughts. Gulf had totally invaded His senses, leaving Him with no other choice but to agree with Whatever Gulf was saying. A voice in His head demanded to Stop Gulf. To Stop from falling as it sounded like it was a neverending trap. The Ache inside Him deepened. Mew just couldn't understand what He should be doing at that point.

Mew, "I just don't understand anything. Why is all this so hard? Whatever you are saying or doing, somewhere it seems right but It also makes Me sad. As if it is not the right thing. As if I shouldn't allow you to go on. But it also makes Me not stop you too."

Gulf calmly said, "Then Let's not stop each other. Let's explore this new version of Mew's Heart. I know it will be hard, but I promise that this Time it will be different. This time it won't bring Pain but Happiness."

Mew nodded. Gulf saw this and had tears in His eyes. He felt as if a huge burden was lifted from his Heart. Mew accepted Him was the only thing He ever wished to have. By now even a lone tear escaped from Mew's eye, which was caught by Gulf. With teary eyes but a smiling face Gulf cupped Mew's face again and brought both their foreheads together. He then again kissed Mew's forehead and said, "I'll be a Beautiful Wiccan of Your Life."

Thought of the Day:::::::

Surprise yourself everyday with your own courage." - ...