Feisty Fiancé

Jacuzzi

I got blind by my anger that I didn't notice the sadness in your eyes,
Forgive me my love,
I hate myself for causing you pain like this,
Forgive me my love.
-Kim Taehyung

Their room was a mess, as soon as Taehyung entered he was met with a sight of clothes, gifts scattered all around the room. Yes, finally Taehyung came back to their room, it's the night before their wedding.

After dinner, Kook texted him if he can meet him at their room. After thinking about it, he replied with an 'okay'. He searched for him but no one was there in the room, it was empty. He was about to call the other when he heard some sound from outside, to be particular water splashing sound from their balcony area.

He went outside to check, just to find Jungkook in the jacuzzi, facing the side of the beach, hands on the edge taking its support, he looked so handsome according to Taehyung, the most handsome man, his back muscles flexing as he moved.

Jungkook turned to him, "Oh, you came." He was not sounding so happy, is it because of me? Taehyung thought.
"Yes."
The other's eyes looked tired when he roamed his vision checking him out from top to bottom. Taking it as a message, Taehyung got rid of his clothes, only in boxers he entered the jacuzzi.

Jungkook held his gaze looking at the other in eyes. He swam near to him, keeping some distance between them not really sure if Taehyung will appreciate him being so close considering the last time he tried, Taehyung just pushed him.

"Hi." It was Taehyung who initiated. Jungkook's gaze was very distracting for Tae, he just averted his eyes from him. "You call-ed m-e?" Way to go Tae, he already knows that and are you stuttering stupid?

"Yes, I'm so sorry for everything." He looked up to check the others reaction. "We are not marrying tomorrow." He said taking a deep breath and letting it out, shoulders slumping in process.

Taehyung was definitely not expecting the later part.
"What?"
"Yes, we are not marrying like this."
"Like what?" He was trying his best to keep his voice in composure.

"You don't even want to talk to me."
"Yes, but that's because I was angry with you."

"True, but I want to talk with you, and we won't talk this out than the marriage is cancelled."
What the hell is going on? Why is Jungkook doing this?

"Are you kidding me? Everything is done, our families are here, the guest, the decorations and every single thing is ready even the flowers are ready."

"I know that but I don't care. Call me selfish but I don't really care about all those things. We can marry next year or any other time, whenever you want but not when you're not sure yourself." Jungkook was pleading, his voice was sounding desperate and Taehyung didn't like it at all.

He came near to him, he caressed his cheek with his fingers slowly and the other closed his eyes feeling the touch, he missed him so much. He can spend hours like this, just bathing in the others presence.

"I want to marry you, I'm just-"
The other opened his eyes, the fingers retracted from his cheeks, "You just what?"
"I'm hurt." Taehyung said it so softly. And when Taehyung looked at him, he can see the other was hurt too, doing this to Tae, Kook felt hurt too blaming himself for the whole situation.

He held the others hand, and kissed his knuckles gently, "And I'm so so sorry for it baby, I really am, you've no idea how much I regret my decision."

"I can see that Koo, I can see it on your face, but please don't blame yourself for this, I understand you did it for me, I really do. But you need to understand too that it takes time to digest all that happened in these few days."

"And I do. That's why I'm suggesting we should postpone this wedding."
"How about we figure it out after everything gets over, okay?" Taehyung said with his head hanging low.

Jungkook reached him, he took his face into his palm, "No Tae, we won't marry like this. If you need time, that's alright. Because it's a good sign to clear out things, we can marry any other day."

"But why?" Taehyung asked, his tone soft.

Jungkook looked so vulnerable when he said cupping his face, "Because you can't even look at me."

That's when it hit Taehyung, that he treated him so badly, he disregarded his love, he hurt his love, his love is hurt because of him. Thinking about how he is hurt he didn't consider that by ignoring Kook, he was also hurting him.

His voice was cracking up by now, "I want you to enjoy our wedding, I want you to be fully happy with it and completely sure when you share those vows with me. That's why I think it's the right thing to do for now." He rested his forehead with Taehyung to avoid looking at him.

"And what if I want to marry you tomorrow?"
"Then I'll be waiting for you at the aisle."

"Look at me Tae." The other did as he was told. "Listen to me carefully, okay. Don't rush your decision, think about it calmly. If you won't come tomorrow than I'll gladly accept your decision and wait for you till you are ready to move on, you don't have to forgive me for that. And I'll be fine with waiting for you till you accept me again."

He said everything with complete sincerity, "Take your time to process everything, we've a whole life ahead. And no one, not a single person will have a say about it, ok. So if there's any doubt or hesitation in your mind that's telling you otherwise, don't come."

Jungkook can't see Taehyung sad on their wedding day, it makes him feel bad too. He wants the elder to have a dream wedding, one of the happiest day of his life not when he's still hurt.

Jungkook detached himself from the other, placing a kiss on his forehead, he got out of the jacuzzi, leaving Taehyung to his own thoughts.

All Taehyung can think at the moment was how stupid he was to stretch their argument for so long, how he didn't consider how Jungkook must be feeling in all this. How his lover is so selfless, how much he loves him earnestly that he's ready to cancel the day he was waiting for, all for what? that Tae has a real smile on his face when walks down the aisle.

Oh, Tae. You've made a bigger mistake then your lover. Instead of asking him to share his burden with him, he caused him more. Well, we all know Jungkook would never think of him as that. But looking over his actions for the past few days, broke Taehyung, as he sobbed for he really is sorry about it.