I'm a sinner but Allah (Swt) i a forgiver
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Kissing your lips touching your body and feeling your soul when i'm touching you, getting butterflies in my stomach when you touching my waist. They al sins I made with you.
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I didn't regret what we did and i'm still not regret every moment with you and the things with you, that's my problem I don't regret but i should regret it's a issue i know what I'm doing isn't right but i keep going back and making the same sins i don't repent it's a big problem but I'm so attach to you that I don't care about the other things, I don't care how many sins i make or how many times i cry myself to sleep because of you aslong i have you in the end.
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Zina yes we did it and not once but 4 times and the 5th one? It's coming soon i know it, oh Lord i'm falling in this dunya how did i let it go so far how?, when i was little and i finally understood the things in life and the things what are haram what we can and what we can not, I always said to myself "I would never do it before marriage" and look now what did i do
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Deen over dunya that something i struggle with i can pray but I don't have the motivation to get up and pray, I want to be forgiven by Allah (Swt) but I can't if I don't repent.
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Another problem as a muslim i fell in love with a non believer/christian boy and i know that I can't be with someone or marry someone who is not muslim it just can't
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Is it bad am I a bad person? I don't know but sorry if i could be a better muslim I promise you I would and I still can i just have to repent and let al the things that are distracting me throw away.
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Smoking the pain away it didn't help it just become a habit and another sin.
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Every nudes i send you to enjoy you was a step forward to make another sin again.
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You didn't give me flowers or love you just gave me a reason to not believe in love, you are the reason why I was missing my salat and why i was missing my good deens. I know that not every muslim is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. but come on this are things you can avoid so easily i did this to myself i was so stupid to fall in all your shit talk and your god dam smile i believed every word you said to me "i would never leave you" but after sex you ghost me for a month and then a month later is it "when can i see you" and i'm so in love that i just say tomorrow.
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I was so busy to please you that I didn't even thought about myself
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The only thing where my mind was you and how i can get to be with you i was so hard trying to be pretty enough for you and to love you.
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YOU ARE READING
The words i wish i said to you
PoetryThis poetry book is about a girl who is so in love with a boy who is only using her for her body, but she keeps going back to him even when he is hurting her deeply. In this poetry book she's writing the things she wish she said to him.
