I don't like the way I am.
People think I am lying.
Why people don't think I am fine?
I am fine.
Actually no.
Who?
Me?
Us.
We.
I.
...
I don't know what am I doing haha.
I wasn't lying when I said he needs help.
I promise I wasn't.
He asked me to.
It wasn't my intention.
I don't know if it was all fake or not.
I'm sure it wasn't all lies.
I know what I felt.
I was real, he was real, I am not faking I promise.
I don't like this.
I am a person too.
I know what I'm doing.
I don't like the way I am.
It's not like "try to change" or something.
Work is work, and I didn't make it well.
I put feelings, that's why I failed.
That's why I always fail.
"I'm pretty sure he will be another one" I said.
But he wasn't.
Why am I like this?
Why he made me like this?
I promise I want to be your friend.
You wasn't a game for me.
I experiment with everyone.
I didn't played with you, I just did what he have told me to do.
I am loosing my mind again.
I wish I wasn't doing that.
I wish he never existed.
I wish I'd never lie.
I wish I could go back in time and hug them.
I wish I wasn't like that.
I wish he wasn't gone.
I wish I didn't did that pact.
I wish he wasn't in my head HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
WHAAAAAT? I AM HERE LIKE O-M-G. I AM HIM, I AM HERE, I DON'T LIKE THIS BUT YOU ARE A A A A A A S KDNSSNSKBDIWNZJDOQNFKEKSNDKSKDJJDWJDBBD
I am fine.
No, I am not. I have feelings too. If your heart is that big, please gimme another chance.
I am not a bad person, ok? I promise I am not.
Maybe I am.
Dunno why am I doing this shit bro, who the fuck is going to read that?
Yourself for example, duuh--
Is this like a diary or something?
If this were a diary probably Wattpad would erase it bc it would be for adults, haha.
Stfu.
Nope, I won't
I said SHUT THE FUCK UP.
MAKE ME.
OH, C'MON, STOP HITTING YOURSELF.
Shoulda stop talking w me right?
This is not normal.
I'm suffering.
Someone please help.
What the fuck is happening to me?
Who am I?
Am I even real?
Damn god, here we go again.
Why I can act like one way and then with another and then I am other fucking person?
What the fuck?
Why?
Who the fuck am I?
This is so stressing to me.
Damn.
It feels like if there's more persons in my head.
Is it normal to hear voices, right? Some weeks ago I read that people with several depression can hear voices if they get too bad, so u though it could be that and also my master, but dunno it feels like if there were more or something. I feel voices that aren't mines. I can't fix that, I can't fix me. Am I si a or something? I promise it feels like if I was more than one. I PROMISE I DON'T KNOW. I PROMISE I FORGET EVERYTHING AND I SM WORRYING ABOUT MYSELF, I HAVE TO FAKE MY PERSONALITY WHEN I REALIZE I'M ACTING IN A WAY I AM NOT, BUT I AM THAT WAY, BUT ALSO I AM NOT, PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!
...Nothing because I am fine.
I mean, YOU are fine, not me.
The fuck? Am I even you?
Dunno, I am confusing myself.
Being honest, I'm not sure this is myself.
I don't know when I act, when he acts, when they act, when anyone else act.
I don't know the actions I do.
I'm starting to realize something is wrong with me.
I just need a rest.
No, I fucking need to know what's wrong with me.
I am not a bad person, why do I act like this? Why do I act like it? Why he makes me act like that?
I don't want to be like this.
I don't want to be a sick, a freak, a weirdo, a stupid, a nerd.
I wanna be normal.
No, that's a lie.
Who the fuck I wanna be?
Happy?
Who am I?
Am I wrong?
This is so stressful.
If I get along I would kill myself.
I am sick. And suck.
I am... Tired.
Dunno.
I'm not even sure if I am writing this or is he making me to or he is controlling me or what the fuck.
Please save me.
I need help.
Dunno men, I'm tired.
I have been sleepy all day.
It's been a while since I slept correctly.
Dunno.
I...
Dunno, I am a stupid person.
No, I am actually not.
Dunno.
Just... Tired, just tired.
...
I guess.
Please open your eyes.
Being honest I don't know what I do or what who do what.
Whatever he wants Ig.
Why you guess that?
Bc he control us, duuh.
Why do you say "Us"?
Hey.
Who tf are you?
Me.
Ha-ha, how funny.
I am you.
No you aren't.
You are taking with me.
Me?
No, not you; me.
Yeah, that's what I said, aren't we the same?
No we aren't.
But you just said-
Ah-ah! It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter what I say.
Yk? I want a friend.
No u can't.
Why?
Because of the way he is.
Hi.
He also has feelings.
...
...
...
...
Who the hell are you?
Who the hell what? I wrote that? I? I? I? I?
...
I. The "I" looks like a Roman number.
Dunno.
I am stupid.
I'm tired.
Tired of living.
