Broken SoulMate

CHAPTER 1

If life is convenient as we thought, maybe we're not struggling to find a reason to live.

TAMARA

"Tam, hey!" I flinch when someone tap my shoulder. Nilingon ko si Alyssa, she's looking at me with a worry in her eyes. Dahil sa lalim ng iniisip ko hindi ko napansin ang paglapit niya.

Holding my face she asked me the most frequent question of the universe. "Okay ka lng ba?" 

I stopped, Okay lng ba ako? That's the same question I have in my mind every single day. Although my life is like a living hell, I keep on holding on. I smile, laugh and love kaya para sakin, okay parin ako. If I stop living and feeling those emotion perhaps that's the time that I'll confidently say that I'm not okay anymore.

"Oo naman, bakit naman hindi?" Natatawa kong sagot sa kanya.

Confusion became evident on her face, maybe contemplating whether to believe me or not. Pero sa huli  pinili niyang tanggapin nalang ang sagot ko at hindi na nagpumilit pa.

I lied, we lied. Most of us lied of what we really feel. Maybe because explaining our real feeling is harder than everyone thought.

Nang makaalis si Ally, pinagpatuloy ko ang pagpapalit ng mga expired na Ramen sa estante. Working here for a months helps me on my daily expenses, mabait din si Ally saakin. She's more like an ate than a boss to me.

"Ouch" I grunt when someone bump my bruise back.  They're still still fresh since nung isang araw ko lang naman iyon nakuha,  kaya't konting galaw lamang ay masakit na.

" sorry, sorry I didn't see you there" I heard a voice of a man. Nang  lingunin ko ay isang nakatungong lalaki ang nasa harapan ko.

He's panicking— "he looks like a lost puppy" mahinang bulong ko sa isip.

Nakayuko siya kung kaya't hindi ko makita ang mukha nya. We're almost the same height 5'8—yep I'm tall, not an average height of a girl. I'm 22, so I know na todo natong height nato.

I look again at the man who's now squatting at the floor, he's getting all the ramen  na nahulog kanina ng mabangga nya ako.

Realizing I'm just watching him, dali-dali narin akong yumuko.
Tinulungan ko siyang pulutin ang mga ito, ngunit nang abutin ko ang huling pakete ng ramen ay saktong pag-abot nya rin dito— you may conclude that what happened will be like in the movies, where our eyes met and the world stop spinning. And then BOOM "we fell inlove, get married and build our own happy family" but you're wrong...

I flinched when I felt his hand on mine, nagulat ako sa lamig nito, parang hindi ito ang normal na temperature ng isang buhay na tao.
Binitawan ko ang ramen at dali-dali akong umayos ng tayo, pinulot nya naman ito at sumunod narin ng pagtayo.

Nang makatayo siya sa harapan ko,  I start to scrutinize his appearance.

His hair is messy where most people call as bedroom hair, nose as tall as the mount everest and when I look up a dark orb with full of mystery is also looking at me.  Those eyes, It's enchanting, it made you want to spill every little secret of yours—

"Are you okay?" My thoughts are cut off when he suddenly talk.

"Ah—oo" I stuttered on his question. Well sino ba namang hindi? His eyes bewitched me, tho not his fault but still!