Can I Be Your Mistake

35 Promises

"is it?!" - gulat kong tanong

"how can you say na it's force?? How force" - tanong nya

"something happened to us. Akala ko ayus lang sa kanya, kasi she's letting me. But after I caught her making out with a guy. I realised maybe she really don't want to make love with me. Abi is a good person. Maybe Ayaw nya lang masaktan yung feelings ko, kaya she let me to touch her" - sabi ko

"is it rape??" - tanong ko ulit

I don't know what to do, if that's rape.

"how can you be so sure na ayaw nya?? Na you just force her??" -mahinahong tanong nya

I sad smile remembering what I discover that time.

"im touching abi, she's letting me. But she never make a move first, she never kiss me first, asked for make love, she never told me she love me too. All the time, it's me!! But when she's with her boyfriend, she even asked her boyfriend to showed her his dick. She even touch that guy dick and kiss the guy. All I see is she's the one who make a move" - sabi ko

Nginitian ako ni aliana at Kiniss nya yung noo ko.

"that's not a rape love so dont worry" - sabi nya assuring me

Napangiti ako, nung napakalma nya ako with that word.

niyakap nya ako, burying my face on her mound. Again!!

Kiniss ko lang yung dib dib nya. At mas niyakap yung bewang nya. Medyo tumingin ako sa side, para mas makiss ko yung dib dib nya.

She giggle kaya tumingala ako para tignan sya. napatingin sya sa akin, I smile when I saw how her eyes shine, and her genuinely smile.

Fuck!!

I really love her na

"why so beautiful even in the morning aliana??" - tanong ko

Ngumiti sya at nirub nya yung tip ng ilong nya sa akin.

"am I?? I want to look fresh though, I already freshen up before you woke up. Para naman di ka na maghanap ng iba" - sabi nya

Natawa ako sa sinabi nya.

"you already freshen up?? But di pa nga ako nag to tooth brush I'm sure meron pa akong morning breath" - sabi ko

Nakaharap ako sa dib dib nya, at Kiniss ko ulit yun.

She cupped my face at pinaharap nya ako sa kanya.

Lumaki yung mata ko ng inamoy nya yung bibig ko, kaya umatras ako.

Fuck!!

Nauntog ako pag atras ko.

headboard pala yung nasa likod ko, why did I forget about that.

"are you alright?? Bakit ka kasi umatras??" - alala nyang tanong

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Her worried face?? Fuck!!

Im falling harder and harder to her.

"let me see!!" - sabi nya at tinignan nya yung ulo ko kung may bukol

"kasi why your smelling my mouth. Kasasabi ko lang na di pa ako nag to tooth brush" - angal ko

Bumuntong hininga sya at tinignan nya ako.

"i dont care!! I already smell all of you Jackie, and di naman mabaho love" - sabi nya

Bumangon ako sa kama, habang buhat buhat ko sya at naglakad ako papuntang bathroom.