Different (Bellatrix X Reader) (Enemies to lovers)

Chapter 2 - Returning

   I started to stir, still in a daze, from the train starting to screeching to a halt. I laid there for a minute trying to fulling awaken myself. I wrapped the blanket around my back and got off the train. Groggily making my way to the castle.

Sometime later

   I walked through the front gates of the castle, and just stood there for a moment. It felt nice to finally be back, even though I was dreading seeing some people. *cough cough* Harry *cough cough* At least I would still have a day or two to myself still.
   Though I've been nothing but nice to him and his little friends. But because of who my father is, he decides to taunt and try to guilt trip information out of me. But hey Buddy, I grew up with Voldy himself, you're going to have to do worse than that to make me give up information. Not that I have any anyways. I don't know what his deal is. It's really fucking annoying that he can't just be quiet sometimes.
   I slowly climbed the stairs to the Ravenclaw common room, as there was no hurry in getting there because I was early anyways.
  Finally reaching my dorm I take out my trunk and guitar case and bring them back up to proper size. I start to unpack my robe and other clothing and put them in my closet, which it is surprisingly full. Guess there's no room for me there. I prop my guitar up against the wall so it won't fall but it is still easily accessible to me when I want to play.
I am still awfully tired from the train ride, even if I did nap the whole ride... I think a nap is in order. I climb under my cozy covers and grab my little raccoon stuffed animal and start to drift off to sleep.

Time skip an hour

Starting to stir from my nap I see the dark space engulfing me. I can't find my wand and I start to panic. All I can see if pitch black, I can't feel my bed under me anymore, it doesn't even feel like I'm in the castle. I am terrified. I start to hyperventilate and begin crying. I don't want him to hurt me, I thought I was safe, he's here, he's coming for me, he's going to torture me.
I start getting violently shaken. I push myself back, I can't open my eyes, I can't see. I fall off my bed and I can finally open my eyes. Thankfully I am in my dorm, it was professor Snape who was shaking me.
"Can't you keep it down, I heard you all the way from the dungeons. Next time it will be a detention Ms. Y/n. I will not be disturbed again."
Swiftly turning with his cape following behind him he left my dorm.
  Oh Merlin, it was just a dream. I sit up from the floor and wipe the sweat off my head... it felt so real...I thought I was....back there...with him. I'm still shaking and sweating. Deep inside I still feel like I'm there and those terrified feelings, I'm not there, I'm at Hogwarts in Ravenclaw tower, in my dormitory.
   I can't stop the feeling like I'm not actually at Hogwarts. The anxiety keeps rising within me. I can hear his voice echoing through my head. You are nothing. "You are a waste of magical blood. Just like your mother, a waste of space, nothing good will come from you. You won't even do a simple crucio. Maybe I should teach you how to do it, hmm? CRUCIO!"   I feel the pain shooting through my body like millions of knives are piercing through my skin. All I can do is lay there and cry silently. There's no use is screaming out and giving him that satisfaction of hurting me.
   I'm laying on my floor with my knees to my chest crying. My skin is burning. I start scratching my arms and legs. But it's not enough. I need to get up before I let myself go too far. I let myself go there again, I'm supposed to be getting better, not worse.
   I start to get up but fall back down to the floor. My legs are weak, my body is so weak. Grabbing ahold of my bed I try again. Still weak and shaking I stand, I need to hold the wooden poles on my bed for support. Slowly stumbling to my bathroom desperately trying not to let my legs give out on me.
   Gradually making it into my bathroom I stumble towards my glass shower doors. Opening one of the doors I quickly flip on the ice cold water and let myself fall to the black tiles, not even bothering to close the door. I'll clean it up later.
   I let myself sit there with the icy cold water for what feels like hours but in reality I know it could've only been 15 minutes. Slowly standing up I turn off the water and take off my soaking wet clothes. I let them sit in the shower so that they can drip off without causing anymore puddles on the floor than there already is.
   Grabbing a towel I dry off myself and then I set it on the floor and mop up the pools of water I let out of the shower.
   Walking over to my closet I grab some fluffy pjs and find my raccoon to cuddle with. It may seem silly that being as old as I am I still sleep with a stuffed animal, but he helps me stay asleep and, most of the time, he keeps the bad dreams away. There are a few exceptions though that slip past him. But that's okay not everyone is perfect.
   Slipping under my covers once again I get comfortable on my side and let myself start thinking of possible outcomes for my future. Thinking of those usually helps me fall asleep because I am in control and I can make it how I want it to be. Be with who I want to be, love who I want and not be hurt anymore.

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                                    Authors Note
Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't updated in months, I didn't know how to write the next part but here it is. Hopefully you all enjoyed it. If you have any ideas of things you'd like to see in the future from this book just lemmie know, feedback is always appreciated. Have a great day/night everyone!