The day i nearly lost him

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Y/N POV:it has been a week since the argument which ended up with hawks going out without a coat in mid-winter and falling sick he was sick for threes days straight then when he felt better he immediatly tried making up to me doing all the chores cuddling all day i could tell he felt bad but it still hurted i just thought one more day and i forgive him , i woke up and realised he wasnt in bed and i now i think about it whats that smell it smell so good,is he cooking breakfast wow he really trying i got up sneakly and went quietly behind him when i said

Y/N:what'cha making hon?

Hawks:Gah! Y/N! Geez you scared i almost died and to answer you im making pancakes for my babybird who is sometime secretly evil!come on go sit down i bring you your plate in a minute and you didnt have anything to do today right?

Y/N: no why anything special... GOD tell i didnt forget our anniversary pls i was sure it was in a month pls!

Hawks:No no dont worry its not that its just that since you haven't forgave me yet and i still feel horrible i wanted to take you out i dedicate my whole day to you! We do whatever you want i swear so is it okay with you?

Y/N:yes but im warning you i wanna go shopping and your wallet gonna suffer are you sure if it goes well i MAY forgive you

Hawks:of course im sure i do anything it take to finnaly sleep without dreaming you leaving me every.single.night. I swear my mind seem to enjoy making suffer at night giving the same nightmare over and over again

Y/N:poor you well hope this day goes well im gonna get dressed

is this fine i wanna go to the mall but i dont wana look dress down:

is this fine i wanna go to the mall but i dont wana look dress down:

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Hawks:yeah you look cute anyway no matter what in my eyes

Y/N :*blush*your such a simp sometime baby

Y/N : I love going to the mall i swear *grumble* woop look im a bit hungry hon can we got get KFC you paying of course so can we ?

Hawks:you dont even need to ask baby its a day for you i say yes to everything you need or require to KFC we go *smile*

Y/N Pov : i wish i never said that when we got in the shop i immediatly saw him he looked really suspicious looking down a hoodie covering his face something weird in his pocket but i dismissed it thinking i was just paranoid and maybe it was just his style but all a sudden someone screamed « he has a GUN !!! keigo turned in a split second pushed me behind him and then all happened so fast as soon as i got behing keigo a loud noise ringed in my ears *pan* and keigo fell on his knees i widened and fell close to him he was barely conscious

Hawks:s-son of a gun he didnt miss it h-hurt like hell sh*t im so tired

Y/N:KEIGO, B-BABE STAY WITH ME PLS NO NO STAY AWAKE BABE !!!

POV:someone called an ambulance while i called mirko they got him in the ambulance while i watched crying in mirko arms she got to the hospital and stayed with me till the doctors arrived she tried calming me down but i coudnt it was my fault ! If...

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POV:someone called an ambulance while i called mirko they got him in the ambulance while i watched crying in mirko arms she got to the hospital and stayed with me till the doctors arrived she tried calming me down but i coudnt it was my fault ! If i didnt agree to go out if i choose somewhere else if i didnt go in there he woudnt be being in surgery trying to stop him from bleeding to death its all my fault i kept crying and blaming myself until a nurse arrived i looked up jumped up and asked

Y/N:HOW IS HE ?! IS HE ALRIGHT?!

Nurse : yeah he is fine he got lucky the bullet went in his stomach passed through him but didnt hit any organ or vitals he probably be out a day or two but he be fine sir i promise

Y/N:c-can i see h-him please...

Nurse:sure this way sir its room 203

i arrived in a room he had a HIV attached to his arm and a bandage on his stomach under his hospital gown i grabbed a nearby chair sat near his bed and just held his hand

Y/N : i know you cant hear me but im so so sorry babe if i forgave you sooner we woudnt not have gotten out and you would not have gotten shot he tried to shoot me but you protected me you took the bullet for me i love you so much im sorry i forgive you i do now i hope you forgive im sorry its all my fault i should have been the one shot not you im sorry i ruined everything

i laid my head on the bed and cried until i fell asleep

 Hawks POV:i woke feeling horrible i got pierced by a giant pin or something i looked around and realised i was in an hospital room uh what am i doing he- oh yah i got shot it hurt like hell i cant believe it happened still wait where is Y/N i looked down and there my heart clenched he was here head folded in his arms fresh tears all over his face eyes all red and puffy it must been horrible not knowing if i was going to make it seeing me get shot instead of him he must have blamed himself over and over until he fell asleep i know him enough to be sure

Hawks :*whisper* i told you im not leaving and not dying i love you

 i must have been too loud cuz he stirred in his sleep and slowly opened his eyes when he saw awake his eyes shot open and he panicked

Y/N:BABE?! Your awake ! Do you need something, food, water ? Does it hurt ? Oh im so sorry baby its all my fault im sorry

Hawks:What? what do you mean its all your fault?

Y/N: I MEAN everything if i-i forgave you yesterday you woudnt taked me out  if i chose somewhere else than the mall or if i didnt choose the kfc he-he woudnt have shot and you woudnt be in this hospital bed as were talking i-im so sorry everyone right i a-always ruin eve-

i got tired of hearing him blame himself i kissed him and he stopped strugling i enjoyed it for a bit and released him

Hawks:i wont hear it its not like you knew it was going to happen did you? you didnt forgive yesterday but its fine and i wanted to take you out forgiving or not today your not one who told him to shoot me or the who were holding the gun i chose to protect you i chose to take the bullet not you so stop blaming yourself ok now lay with me im desesperate need of cuddles !

Y/N:*chuckle* sure sure coming love

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