Heartbeat

miss you

I want to see you, at the same time
I don't
My heart is torn, between this back and forth
I know I should reach out, but my doubts don't sway
I'm upset too, when you are away
I want to be there, at your side
To hold your hand and show that I care
But then I think, what if things go wrong
What if my presence make you more forlorn
I'll feel guilty, if I can't make you smile
So I guess
We'll have to wait for a while
I know I should try, but my heart is in knots
I'm afraid, I'll cause you more distress
So for now I'll stay away
Hoping that soon, I'll find a way