표시 (Marked) [Sehun FF]

표시 (Marked): Nine

The unit Luhan got for us was perfect, it has the view of the beach, it has four beds, two bedrooms and a kitchen. All we need for three day stay.

"Can you wake up everyone?" I asked Sehun. He groaned before following. The bastards continued sleeping as soon as we transferred rooms.

After placing the pancakes, omelettes and bacons on the table. They walked in, one by one. And Chen weirdly having a stupid grin.

"Hey Autumn." He said through his grin "Can you see the fuck you in my smile?" He said while smiling.

Figures.

Chen, among all of us, is the one who hates it the most to be woken up from his slumber. I don't know about Sehun, considering I just knew him.

I don't know Sehun, but I love him. And that's some scary shit. What have I gotten myself into?

After eating the breakfast I prepared for them, Lay offered to wash the dishes. And me being sleepy from last night's event, absent mindedly slept inside the room I share with Chen and Sehun.

Waking up, there was no one inside the unit. It was so quiet, too quiet, even if I share this room with Lay right now, it won't be this quiet.

I flipped through channels before stopping on a variety show with some kpop idols in it. Not having that much interest, my mind wandered back to Sehun.

Is it right? Is this right? I feel love towards the man I just met, towards the guy who may be saying he loves me just because he likes to, not because he feels it. I mean, it's not far from possible. I just met him and I know nothing, and when I say nothing. I mean nothing, I know nothing about him.

And if he doesn't really love me? What happens to me? Do I fight for my feelings or do I turn around and walk the other way? Will I become an emotional wreck?

And if he does love me? What happens to us? Do we take our relationship to the next level? What about Baekhyun? Do I obey him or do I fight for him? Can I lose my relationship with my brother for him?

Is he worth the fight?

Is he worth the loss?

Is he worth the heartache?

Irritated, I shook the thoughts away. I hate doubting him, I don't want to doubt him. Let's just hope for the best.

Hearing the door burst open, revealing the five bastards. Drunk bastards. Who even drinks in broad daylight? It's just three in the afternoon, we haven't made any progress in this vacation, and we can't of they keep on being drunk.

I felt an uneasy feeling in my chest as I watch them make their way to the couch. Drunk people are one of the honest people. And it's impossible they didn't have me as a topic. What did Sehun say? Not that I am ashamed of having this thing with him, but I just don't want to be judged by being in a commitment in such a short time.

Unsure of what to do, I walked back to the room. I heard Kai call my name a few times but I just ignore him.

I felt my chest tighten as thoughts continue to eat my brain.

"A, are you alright?" Sehun said, leaning by the door frame.

"Yes.. I'm alright." I answered shortly, trying to regain my normal breathing pace. My vision getting darker little by little.

"If there's anything that's bothering you---"

"I'm alright!" I snapped as my chest get tighter every second. I held my hand to my chest, trying to remove the tight feeling. As if that would help.

"Luhan! Lay!" Sehun shouted frantically.

The tight feeling in my chest didn't leave as I hear Luhan and Lay's footsteps.

"What are you doing?" Lay asked Sehun.

"Calling an ambulance what the hell does it look like?" Sehun snapped.

"Call Baekhyun. Now." Luhan told Lay as he use his hand to fan me. Ugh, I hate this.

Luhan was reassuring me that everything will be alright before my vision went black.

--

White. Everything was white and bright. Faint sound of gushes was heard when I opened my eyes slowly, the light was bright, too bright it can blind me.

"What the fuck?" I mutter to myself. Why am I in a hospital?

"Dirty mouth." Someone snickered.

"Too bright." I mumbled.

"Yeah, like we can do anything about that." Kai said.

"All of you were drunk, right?" I asked them.

"Well if you being carried to the ambulance like a fucking corpse can't sober us up, then I don't know what will." Chen said, holding his head.

They might be jerks, but they're nice jerks.

"You never told us you had anxiety attacks." Luhan told me.

"I never knew I had them.." I mumbled. Anxiety attack?

"Baekhyun is on his way back." Lay informed me.

"What?" I sat up.

"We called him, he was the one who told us about your anxiety attack. He was frantic and booked the earliest flight." Lay explained. Oh god how I hate this.

"I'm sorry, I ruined everything." I shook my head lightly.

"Don't think about it, it's alright. We can always go some other time." Kai said.

Silence filled the room as I wander back around my thoughts.

Baekhyun will be here in a few hours. That means no Sehun, because he's too selfish to give me what makes me happy. Damn it.

"Can we..uhm." I stammered, referring to Sehun.

"Sure." Chen smiled lightly before leaving the room along with Luhan, Lay and Kai.

Sehun was standing at the corner of the room, staring at me.

"If I have another damn anxiety attack, it's your fault." I told him and he didn't speak. He was leaning on that damned wall since I flutter my eyes open. What is his problem?

"Are you upset?" I asked him and he shut his eyes close in frustration before standing up and walking towards me.

"Are you?" I looked into his eyes as he sit beside me on the hospital bed.

He didn't speak "You're upset." I sighed, looking away.

"God damnit, A. I'm..I'm not." He said, holding my hand.

"I just..hate. Hate seeing you like this." He brushed my hair with his hand.

"What are you feeling right now?" I asked him.

"It hurts to see you like this,"

"What were you so anxious about?" he asks, cupping my neck.

"A lot of things." I informed him.

"Baekhyun will be coming home.." I trailed off "You..you'd still be around.. Right?" I ask as my heart drums.

"I'll always be around," he paused "I love you." he planted a swift kiss on my forehead. I felt relieved by those three words he uttered.

"No matter what, right?" I asked him.

"No matter what." He said and I stare at him. He might looked a little off because of the situation, but he still looks perfect.

"You should stop staring at me like that if you don't want me to fuck you on this hospital bed." I was surprised by his words.

"Could you any be more blunt?" I laughed.

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