My Love (ghost x reader)

chapter 5: a tease

Once you finished your shower you turned off the water and stood there for a moment with a sigh. You reached over and dried yourself off then put on your clothes. You opened a drawer that has your brush and toothbrush. You brushed your hair out first, getting rid of the tangles and knots. After you were done you traded the hair brush for your toothbrush, putting it under the water and putting toothpaste on it. You brushed your teeth and cleaned out your mouth with water.

When you were finished in the bathroom you walked downstairs to find Simon just laying on the floor, watching the ceiling like it was his favorite show. You let a quiet chuckle through your lips wich alerted him that you were out. He looked over at you with a smile and stood up.

"How does the water feel?" He said with a chuckle "I hope you left me some hot water." He smiled, standing in the middle of the room. "There should be, I wasn't in long." You responded, moving to sit on the couch as he began to walk upstairs. You began to channel serf in order to find a decent TV show or movie as you relax into the couch.

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Simon looked at you for a moment with a small smile before turning the corner to go into the bathroom. He turned on the water, letting it warm up as he undressed. Once it was warm enough to his liking, he stepped into the water. He slowly relaxed into the water and looked down at himself.  Shiny pink scars  ran across his stomach and hips, even his thighs. He frowned and felt sick to his stomach just by looking at them. He'd always hate the feeling of his scars under the hot water, the sting from New cuts and not quite healed scars never failed to take over his mind, feeling it all over, even if it was a microscopic cut.

He stayed in the shower for a rarher long time. Once he was done, he got out and walked to his room with a towel around his waist, throwing it in the laundry bin and then dressing into comfort clothes. He threw himself onto the bed and laid on his side facing away from the closed door.

He took long deep breaths in attempt to calm down a he's back in his childhood bedroom with his father holding a python inches from his face. As he's back to seeing the lady his father killed in the bathroom as his father tells him to laugh. He's back using his teammate's jaw to dig out of the grave he was put in alive. He felt warm tears begin to flood down his face as he recognized the dangers of letting Simon out over ghost. Sure he feels safe around you, safe enough to show you the sweet, sensitive man named Simon. But when ghost is always out, bottleing up the memories and truama;  Simon never shows, and when he does, the trauma that he's been holding, the emotions, the memories, everything will eventually eat him alive.

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You realized that he hasn't came downstairs in about 40 minutes which made you worry slightly, but you told yourself that he wanted space to himself so you left him alone for about 20 minutes after that before deciding to check on him. You walked upstairs to the bathroom, just incase he was taking a long shower. The lights were off so you walked over to his room slowly.

You hesitaded before softly knocking on his door "you ok?" You asked quietly to not startle him if he was in a mood. You  waited for an answer for a few minutes, no answer. "I'm coming in" you said quiey. You opened the door to see Simon turned away from the door, curled into a ball. You walked twords him and sat on the bed, his back facing you. "you alright si?" You questioned quietly, coming up with the name on the spot.

He shook his head 'no' and squeezed his eyes shut, his skin damp with tears and sweat. "They won't go away" he choked out, his voice was hoarse. His hands were tugging on his hair.

Your eyes softened as you realized how much he was hurting. "Shh it's ok" your voice was just above a whisper. You put your hand over his, moving it off of his head so he couldn't pull on his hair anymore. He gripped onto your hand in order to ground himself. You layed next to him with your arm around him "I'm here now, its ok" you told him quietly.