Unplanned Marriage

Unplanned Marriage 11

Unplanned Marriage 11

2 days. 2 nights. Alone and Cold. The home was eerily quiet. Mew had not slept a wink. He had spent all his time in his study. Drowned in his files and staring at the picture framed and placed on the table. He had not contacted Gulf since he left him 2 days ago. And didnt get any message from him either, not that he was expecting anyway.

"Its complicated Tae. I dont know how to handle it. The moment when i thought i had everything in check, its all destroyed like a house of cards.  I dont know what to do? How to tackle the situation. I regret agreeing to this all marriage shit. I shouldnt have. One promise had me destroyed for whole life Tae. For how many times do i need to assure everyone when no one is ready to give me a chance. Was it too much to ask for 1 moment for myself when i dont even ask for anything. Was it too much of a crime.

Please help me Tae. I am helpless". He racked his hair roughly with his fingers before deciding on something. He took a quick bath and slipped into his semi casual dress. He picked up his car keys and after half an hour drive, he parked his car at the cemetery. The last time he visited the place was around a half month ago and he was so involved in building his little family.

Taking a wash cloth he cleaned the tombstones of two graves.

Thanitt Itthipatt.
A cherished Son and a Brother. A faithful love.

His eyes watered as he cleaned the dust on the name engraved on the black stone. His baby brother, sleeping peacefully. He could still see those glittering eyes when he would plan any mischief. The way his lips would twich to hold a laughter but would end up rolling on the floor anyway. He was a tid bit taller than Mew, but slim. He was pampered to spoiled by Mew and he was proud of it. He was always there to stand with Mew whenever he would achieve his goals. Any important decision or any special moment. Thanitt always had his back. And then.. He left Mew alone. Leaving behind all his memories that clutched Mew like an octopus.

Mew turned to his right, standing in between two stones.

Tae Darvid.
The lifeline of Mew Suppassit.

Nothing else. Just one line to show to the world who he belonged to even after the death. He only belonged to Mew. And Mew would have done the same only if he wasnt bound to a promise. A promise to marry his nong.

"Not fair. You guys are up there partying around, and i am here alone. Yes ,alone. Because clearly i failed to protect your baby Thanitt. I failed to take care of your little brother Tae. I dont know how to put this shit in words. But..". Mew scowled, tugging his hair a bit hard. He sat down on the marble tiles in between two graves. "Its all so new for me. And i know its hard for Gulf too. But isnt it always normal? People argue and then settle back, they dont leave each other alone. I was happy to live my life alone when you both left me, it didnt bother me. Atleast i knew where my heart belonged, but now. Its confusing.

I want to cherish every moment with him, to spend my life with him, but i think its me t fault. I couldnt understand him. I dont know how much he expected from me, but i am sure i failed him. Why no one considers me human too"? He tiredly put his head in his hands. He was tired. Bearing it all alone was too much.

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The first day at his parents home was a mess for Gulf. He only cried and cried hard. His parents were really angry at New for being so careless and irresponsible. They forbade Gulf to use his mobile to contact Mew, he wasnt in a mood either. For the next couple of days he felt the change in him. He was comfortable in his bedroom but he was feeling lonely. He forgot to sleep alone. He was so used to being pampered by Mew. Cradling his swollen belly. Keep feeding him with juices and snacks. Reading books to him until he would fall asleep and still keeping him close when he would wake up. And now..