Amara, 18 🇭🇹
it's been more than a week since the fight i had with my mother. since then, i've moved in with roy and i started working all the time. we both have.
i guess you can say i got over everything. seeing my dad for the first time in 5 years, being raped, losing my mom...
today is the first day of my senior year. even though this was the worst summer of my fucking life, i'm a straight-a student and i know i have a bright future ahead of me.
September 12th
6:54 am
amara:
"hey do you see my lipgloss anywhere?" i ask him.
we're getting ready for our first day back.
leroy hands me my lipgloss.
we continue to get ready in silence, then he breaks it.
leroy:
"what do you want to eat?" he quietly asks.
amara:
"umm let's have cereal!" i say, trying to have an excited tone.
everything has been quiet around here. it's... gloomy. all the stuff that happened this summer. i feel like i ruined roy's life. all he does is protect me and worry about me. he barely talks to me anymore. i feel like he's exhausted..
leroy puts on his shoes. he doesn't respond and goes downstairs. i'm guessing he went to make breakfast.
Leroy, 19 🇯🇲
this summer has been really hard. for amara. i feel like it's my job to be there for her. don't get me wrong, i want to protect her and be there for her.. but it's like i had no time for myself these past few months. all i want is for her to be happy and safe. i put amara before anything. i don't make time for myself anymore. and i barely see my parents, i probably see them once every 3 months.. and holidays. and i barely see my friends. i'm depressed. but i cant let anyone know, because they'll think i'm weak. i don't want amara to think i'm weak..
i make our favorite cereal. amara comes downstairs and puts our backpacks on the couch.
we've both been working and we make pretty good money. we're able to buy clothes, groceries, and our school supplies. my parents take care of the bills and send me money from time to time.
we sit down at the table and start eating.
amara:
" how are you feeling? about going back to school and all?" she says, trying to make conversation.
leroy:
"it's ight, nun special.." i say, looking down at my bowl.
amara:
"oh..um did you get your schedule yet?" she says.
i made sure we have majority of our classes and free periods together. and i made sure that she'll never have to be in a class with zay, or even have to cross paths with him.
leroy:
"nah i didn't see, we'll get our schedules when we get there." i quietly respond.
7:30 am
we walk into the main office and get our papers.
amara:
"wow we basically have the same schedules." she laughs.
