Summary: After you and Natasha break up, you decide to write a letter to her and her future forever person
Warning: Angst
A/N: I might do an Part 2... lemme know!
драгоценная ангел - precious angel
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To my love,
If you're reading this then it means I've finally had the courage to give this to you.
Nat, I'm so sorry. I know that whatever I say will never make a difference. I know that you probably hate me. I know that you never want to see me again so I'll keep this brief.
I'm sorry about how I left things. I'm sorry about how I reacted. I'm sorry for every single time I ever caused you pain. I'm sorry for the way I started to pull away when things got tough. I'm sorry for giving up on us. I'm sorry that I gave up on fixing our arguments. I'm sorry for leaving in the middle of the night. I'm sorry for leaving you after I promised that I never would. I'm sorry for not saying goodbye. I'm sorry for leaving you crying in the bathroom the night before. I'm sorry that I broke your heart. I'm sorry for screaming at you. I'm sorry for telling you that I hated you. I'm sorry for a lot of things, but the one thing I will never be sorry for is loving you. I hope you find someone better than me. I hope you find someone that will treat you like the queen you are. I hope that whoever makes you happy will continue to do that until your last breath. I hope that one day you will forgive me. I hope for a lot of things, but most of all, I hope you find your forever soulmate. I love you Natalia Alianova Romanova. And I always will.
Your драгоценная ангел
Y/N
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Dear Natasha's forever person,
I hope that you treat Natasha with the respect she deserves. I hope you treat her nice and take her out on amazing dates and make her smile as wide as she can.
I hope you love her as much as she loves you. I hope that Natasha feels safe enough to be able to hold you and kiss you in front of her families. I hope that Yelena accepts you with open arms and calls you her сестра or брат. I hope that Alexi pulls you into a bone-crushing hug and calls you his child. I hope that Melina pulls a weapon on you because she means that approves of you.
I hope that Tony will wrap his arms around your shoulder and tell you the worst joke about the Black Widow. I hope that you bond with Steve about the 1900's and talk with Bruce about science-y stuff. I hope that you get along with Sam and Bucky and that you're able to do the funniest pranks with them. I hope that Peter runs to you when he has a problem because it means he trusts you enough to call you his parent. I hope that you bond amazingly with Clint and treat his kids and Laura with love and admiration. I hope you get to know Wanda through cooking and that you can laugh together about Vision's inability to detect sarcasm. I hope that you take care of Natasha in ways I never could. I hope you will care for her and love her as much as she loves you because she is full of love. No matter what she says.
And although I say that I hope, I do mean that I know. Because Natasha doesn't just pick anyone to be her forever person. I hope you know that.
And if you ever find it hard to understand Nat, here's some tips.
She'll bite her lip excessively when she's stressed
To help her destress, she likes it when you run your hand through her hair
She picks around her nails when she's worried
Don't scold her about it, she hates that.
Just take care of her and tell her that you love her.
She's usually freaked out after having a nightmare
Going to Walmart and baking a velvet cake with her calms her down
And if that doesn't work, ask her if you can braid her hair. Wait until she says yes before you make a move.
When she has a breakdown
When she has a breakdown, don't force her to talk. Just hold her tight and promise that you'll never let go.
When's she staring at you with big round eyes
Take her someplace alone, it usually means that she misses you and wants a cuddle session.
Grab a large hoodie to wear and she'll burrow herself between the hoodie and you.
If she's ever sad
All you need to do is call her an adorable cheesy nickname and she'll grin like the Cheshire cat.
I don't mean to make it sound like I know it all. It's just a small guide if you ever get stuck. I wish all the best of luck. And I honestly, from the bottom of my heart, I know that you will make her the happiest she will ever be. Because she was like that with me. And I know that she'll trust you more than she ever trusted me. Just treat her with the respect she deserves and nothing will ever go wrong for you two.
Sincerely,
Y/N L/N
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