FADED

The Irony of Sun and Rain.

I enjoyed my stay sa Punta Reta. It was like an escape to reality. Aside from leaving him and my friends is that, I really want to decide for myself. That's why I am acting like a brat. They were not with me nung mga panahong kailangan ko silaz they were busy with the business in Cali and I was here all alone tending myself, deciding for myself. And with that, sasabihan nila akong doon ako magpapatuloy ng college? I know they are my parents but fuck. Just fuck.

I dragged my bag and went straight to my room without sparing anyone a glance. I opened Laptop and opened my skype. I immediately clicked Alyssa and Reese for a conference.

Your back bakla! I mimissyou! You got awesome tan ha! - Alyssa said while eating ice cream.

Yea yea. Kamusta?- Reese being the goody one asked with concern.

Im good. Ill see you bukas? Lets shop and spend my remmaining days. - I said with a sad smile. Yes. Sasama na ako kina mama, I just felt I owe them. Besides, kung kami talaga ni Tristan, kami talaga. Well im just fooling myself on that note.

I texted him a while ago saying we'll meet at the coffee shop so that we could talk.

"Hey." I said as he approached me. I will miss him so much.

"Hey." He said and pulled me up for a hug. Ambango niya. Sobra.

"Nag order na ako.." i said and looked away.

"Uhmm. Okay.." He answered and held my hand. I felt secure while he is holding me. Gawd. How could I fucking leave this man?

"Nangangayayat ka aa. And you look tanned. How was it?" He said and smiled.

"Okay lang.. uhmm.." I awkwardly said and shook my head.

"Let's eat." He said as the food approaches.

"Umm.. matutuloy kayo?" He asked me.

I looked away and said " yeah."

Then a dead silence came like rain. It was the most silent moments of my life. I wanted to say something but I couldn't say anything. Like I was prohibitted to talk.

"Hey.. yung kape mo baka matapon.." he said as he touched my hand pero I yanked it like i was being electrified. I never noticed na malapit nang matapon ang kape sa damit ko.

" Can we talk?" I managed to say.

"About what Andrea? Are you breaking up with me?" He said with a sad tone.

"No. Of course not! I mean, what now? I am leaving.. and you here.. how?" I said hesitantly.

"I love you. And you leaving is the hardest part to deal with. But you'll coming back right?" He said and squeezed my hand gently.

"What about us? Do we call it off for the moment? LDR sucks.. but we could still try." I said and smiled.

He let out a sigh. I guess, pareha kaming naghihirap ang kalooban dahil sa desisyon ng mga magulang ko. If things are easier to fix like magic, then we could've been perfectly okay.

" I dont want LDR but.. We'll try. We'll do our best okay.. As long as we both knew that we love each other, everything will be okay. Four years lang. Titiisin natin.. We'll make it possible.." he said and kissed my hand.

Nagblush ako at napangiti. He said we'll try. Then let's give it a shot. Our love is like the sun, its young and burning.. but we have to face the rain.. though its ironic, but I know, it will shine on us and washed the sadness the rain brought.