FADED

Distance.

Isang buwan na ang nakalipas nang umalis kami papuntang California. It was awesome here. Everywhere shouts modernity and independence.

I was studying at CSU. Tangina talaga. Sa unang araw ko, naligaw ako dahil sa lawak ng Campus. Dinaig pa ang Diliman. Pero nevertheless, maayos naman nila akong tinaggap and even shocked dahil filipina daw ako. I just smiled at them everytime they would asked and found out about my nationality. Being here is good actually. Madami akong naging kakilala dahil medyo halo halo nadin ang mga nationalities na nandito.

I am still cold towards my parents though, and everytime na may spare ako after doing school works , i would immediately logged in my skype and talk to Tristan. We shared about a lot of things. Exchanges swret whatnots and Iloveyous. And he said he will wait for me. Though, I really hope he would.

It was like a routine. School - Bahay - Skype cycle until I didn't noticed na I was on my last year na pala. Shocks. Ang bilis ng oras. Time really flies when you are occupied.

Medyo maayos naman na din kami nila mama at papa. I understand their side and They are really making it up to me.

But I have noticed na medyo seldom nalang kami mag usap ni Tristan. Though, I cant blame him dahil nagsisimula na ang OJT niya and juggling all his time with the firm and school stuffs. Kawawa nga eh. He dreamt to become a renowned architect someday and I know he is closer na.

Then one day, one of my cousin told me that he saw Tristan with a girl sa mall. They are not that sweet but there's something stirring between them. I was fumming with disappointment and stuff but I did not confront him. I just gave him the benefit of the doubt. We are still sweet during video calld and messages. Like nothing has changed.

One day, when I was fucked as hell after that blood sucking finals we had, I received a private message on FB. It was from a girl I didn't know who.

Annika Katherine Norzaga

Uhm. Hi. I know na hindi mo ko kilala but, may I know if ano mo si Rristan?

Is this the girl my cousin said?

AndreaReign Vargas

I'm his girlfriend?? The last timr I check I am still his girlfriend. Why'd you ask though?

Annika Katherine Norzaga

Im his Girlfriend kasi. And He said you and him are over na daw matagal na. Im sorry for messaging you but please leave my boyfriend alone.

Tangina lang ha. Ang kapal ng mukha ng mga pota! Nag aapoy ako. Promise.

AndreaReign Vargas

Uh. Ganun ba? We'll he denied me already. Then Im his ex. Is this all you want? Do you need anything? Kasi ang kapal ng mukha mong itanong sakin yan. Please do me a favor and go fuck yourselves.

And blocked them in my account. Ang kakapal ng mukha!

I was really really fuming mad than even the next day at out film showing dala ko la ang aura kong sabog. My friends keep bugging me about what happened and I jist shrugged it off. Nangyari na e. Why fuss over that matter? Hindi ko naman ikakamatay kung wala siya sa buhay ko, well techinically, ill be hurt. Sabi nga nila, distance is really a huge factor. It changes people.. and feelings. Masakit man pero kailangan.. Kailangan ko siyang pakawalan.