Broken Voice( brittana fanfic)

Me And Her Could Never Be

(Santana's Pov)

It's been a week since the drunk Britt incident. i denied her and ever since, she's been distancing herself from me. She's starting to go back to not talking unless it's necessary and we're not as close as we use to be. However, she does have a tendency of sneaking into my dorm at night. I figure it was because my bed is more comfortable so I added a another bed for me to sleep on but she was next to me the next morning.

"Santana, were friends right"

(Brittany's Pov)

I hear Rachel talk and instantly want to sigh. But something told me to be quiet and just listen.

(Santana's Pov)

"If you wake up brittany I'll kill you. and yeah, I guess you could say that" I say looking at Rachel laying down in her bed across the room, which is only like 10 feet. I forgot to mention that I sleep on the inside meaning Britt is on the outside part so I have to overlook her to see Rachel.

"I need advice" she says as she sits up on her elbow and wait for my reply.

"On what unibrow" I say as I watch Brittany's movement. I look to see Rachel laying back down, so I decided to do the same. I watch brittany as i hear her question.

"Lets say, I have this friend. This friend is a person who grew up in a world of pain. They went through hell and back and lost their heart on the way. This friend I have, have happiness right in front of their face but is too scared to take it. What would you say to someone like that" she says and I stare at ceiling before I answer.

"I would respect that decision of the person and I would tell the persons friends to leave the situation alone"

"Why won't you let brittany in all the way" she asks harshly and then covers her mouth. I watch and see brittany stay in the same position so I calm down a little.

"Because she should have someone better than me" I say looking at brittany as if it's my last time looking at her.

"What are you talking about, she only wants you" Rachel says and I smile at that.

"I know but I won't let her have me" I say and sigh while brushing hair out of her face.

"Why not" Rachel says while leaning up.

"Because people like me and Britt, don't exist together" I say. And see Rachel frown.

"Why because your both girls"

"No you ass, it's because she's good and Im bad. she's sweet while Im a complete bitch. Like you said all I ever endured was sadness, brittany heart is pure and I don't want to mess that up" I say while rubbing her face lightly.

"You never cared before about other people, why now" she says.

"Because this is different. Brittany's different" I say and see Rachel frown

"How so"

"She's herself and is not afraid to show it. I love how she is always on the bright side. She didn't have to do what she did for me on the plane, or in the car, with the bar. She tolerates me just like you guys and if we're being completely honest, Sam or Artie would be perfect for brittany, not me" I say while getting up. I try climbing over brittany only too get my leg wrapped in between hers. It's like she locked her legs out of reflex to mine because next thing I know, instead of getting up to walk away. I landed on the ground back first, bringing brittany with me. if she wasn't awake, she surely was now. I hear her moan in pain and feel her start to lift up. I try to look anywhere but her so she can't see my eyes, but she still does.

"San, why are you crying" she asks with a concern look. She's basically straddling me but is also laying down that our chest is touching and her face is close to my face.

"It's nothing, just crying for how stupid I am for aiming for something I can never have" I say laughing and see brittany frown in confusion while Rachel gives me an empathy look.

(Brittany's Pov)

After those words left her mouth, I knew she was talking about us ever being together.

"Sometimes aiming to low is worst than aiming for nothing at all" I say and Rachel frowns.

"Meaning......you should always aim high and never cry" I say wiping her face softly while smiling.

"Everything that happens in your life is a lesson or something great" I say while rubbing her face lightly. I stop rubbing her face and look into her eyes. I can see her have a inner battle with herself on what she should do. I lean in a little to test her and see her panic and start to move around.

"I'm sorry Britt, Im just not use to having this much weight on me" she says and I give her a shocked look while she goes wide eye. I start to get up and sit on the bed, while Santana stands facing the door and is sidewards to me and Rachel.

"Not that your heavy, it's just no one else have ever laid on me really" she says and I looked shocked again.

"Seriously...."

"Yeah......Santana snaps on anyone who even touches her...... She never let anyone lay on or even hug her. Im surprised that she let you....well actually....."

"Shut up hobbit" Santana says harshly and I smirk because she was going to say she knows the only reason why is because Santana has a thing for me.

"Haha, well thanks for the insight Rachel and Santana be nice" I say and slap her ass earning a mouth wide open shocked look from Rachel and a blush from Santana.

"I can't be......"

"I'll kill you" Santana says to Rachel to shut her up. She immediately turns to me and say sorry and I laugh. My phone starts to ring and I check caller ID and growl.

"You okay" Santana asks.

"Peachy, I'll be back in five minutes tops "i say and fake a smile. I step out front of the dorm and answer my phone.

"What do you want" I say disgusted.

"Stop being so mean" she says sweetly.

"I'm sorry but not just a week ago you tried to fricken kill me" I say pissed.

"I know, I know and I want to say im sorry. what can I do to make it up to you" she says.

"Leave Santana ALONE" I say low and harshly.

"Deal as long as you can do me this one favor" she says quietly.

"What do you want Dani" I say sighing.

"You" she whispers in my ear and before i can react, i black out.