Chishiya x Reader

Chapter 8

//Chishiya POV
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He's killed them both. Niragi has killed them both. I couldn't sleep, I was awake all night, I only noticed the time when I saw the sun rising through the window. I was so tired, but my mind wouldn't shut off. I thought I would be more upset about having to rethink the plan, but the thought of losing Kuina and y/n hurt so much more.
How could Niragi do this and not even care? Gloating like a complete psycho. I sit in the same position for hours, my body finally began to give in from exhaustion and I fell asleep.

"Chishiya!!" A voice suddenly woke me, I tried to adjust my eyes to the now dark room. Had I slept all day?
I looked around through slightly open eyes and could make out two figures stood in my doorway. I could of sworn the closer one looked like Kuina. I must be having some sort of weird dream, or hallucinating.
I shut my eyes again but I could hear footsteps rushing towards me.

"Wake up Chishiya!" The same voice as before, they began roughly shaking me.
My eyes shot open and to my surprise it was actually Kuina stood in front of me, alive.
What was happening?
"We're so sorry Chishiya!!" Kuina pulled me in for a tight hug. I was too stunned to speak.
"We didn't think you would cry about us!" There was so much desperation in her voice.
I frowned as I looked towards the door, my eyes now adjusted to the dark room and y/n was stood staring at me, her eyes wide. I felt my heart start racing. Not wanting to make a scene, I decided to reply.
"What are you talking about?" I grumbled.

"We're so sorry for tricking you Chishiya! We're sorry we made you cry and telling Niragi to tell you he killed us!" Kuina grabbed me tighter.

Now it was all making sense. This was another plan to get emotion out of me. Although I felt angry and betrayed, but also relieved they were still alive, I wasn't giving them what the wanted.

"I didn't cry" I spoke bluntly. "I barely realised you wasn't back, Niragi is obviously lying for some drama" I added. Kuina now letting go of me, y/n began to walk closer. I could feel my breathing getting faster at the sight of her. She was wearing red lipstick. She looked so good. My gaze went quickly back towards Kuina as I heard her angrily groan and hit my chest.

"You're telling me you don't care if we had died?!" Kuina was beginning to shout.

"Why would I? Everyone dies eventually. It's just something that happens" I begin to stand. Looking back towards y/n who was now frowning at me with sad eyes. I gulped loudly. I'm doing it again. I'm driving people away, making them think negatively of me. I can't help it. But I've suddenly got a pain in my heart, looking into y/n sad eyes.

"You're pathetic" Kuina said, turning to leave the room, walking passed y/n. "Let's go y/n"

Y/n just nodded at her, but not taking her eyes from mine.

"I'll be with you in a minute" y/n spoke softly towards Kuina. I could now see Kuina entering y/n room and shutting the door behind her.

Y/n began walking closer to me, before she stopped right in front of me, just inches away.

"I understand if you weren't sad about my death, we barely know eachother, but Kuina? You wouldn't even feel the tiniest bit of emotion if she was gone?" She asked, concern in her voice.

I just looked to the floor.

"I'm sorry I'm not the person you both want me to be" I reply, my voice almost a whisper. I won't let them know they actually got to me.
I wanted to tell her that Kuinas death would crush me. I wanted to tell her her death would crush me too.
She's right I barely know her, but it felt like I've known her a lifetime. It felt so right everytime we're alone together. Like we both belonged.

"You could atleast pretend, for Kuinas sake. Your words have probably broken her" y/n turned towards the door to leave, but I grabbed her arm. I wonder if she felt the same electricity I felt everytime we touched.

We stared into eachother eyes for a few moments. What is this feeling? Why did I want to take her in my arms and kiss her? Why did I want her to stay here with me?
I didn't know what to do or say.
I just wanted to stare into her eyes.

Y/n looked towards the floor, her cheeks seemed to be glowing red.
I still couldn't take my eyes from her.

"I'm sorry" I spoke softly, y/n bringing her eyes back to mine.

"I'm sorry too" y/n replied "we thought we were doing the right thing, we shouldn't try to change you" y/n sighed with a tone of defeat.

I just breathed deeply.

I didn't want her to think I was a horrible person. For some reason, her opinion mattered the most.

Without even thinking I felt my arms wrap around her. One around her waist and the other on the back of her head, pulling her closer until her head rested on my shoulder.

Y/n seemed taken aback, taking a good few seconds to respond, but she just pulled away.

"You don't have to pretend to care Chishiya, but maybe you should be hugging Kuina, not me" she said quietly.

Why couldn't I bring myself to tell her the truth? Was my own ego more important than her emotions?

I just nodded towards y/n as she was already leaving my room. I can't help but keep fucking up. She must hate me.

I just fell to my bed. I could still smell her. Although it was just a quick hug, I've never felt that close to another person before. I didn't want to let go, I didn't want her to push me away. I wanted us to stay like that.

I close my eyes, but I know I won't be able to sleep.

What has she done to me?