"YOU ARE NOT GOING TO ABORT THAT BABY! YOU HEAR ME, MC?!"
Maybe consulting my mom was a bad idea after all. Sabi na't dapat inilihim ko nalang ito.
"Mama, you know how bad I wanted to work right after I graduated."
"And THAT is not enough reason to kill an innocent child! Walang kasalanan ang batang 'yan!"
"This child isn't even whole yet, ma! And this is just a result of one reckless night. So, please let me abort this."
"You are out of your mind! Where is the sweet girl that I raised? That girl won't even hurt an ant!"
"Mom please calm down,"
I'm trying to calm her down kaya't hindi na ako sumagot kahit pa marami pa 'kong gustong sabihin. Baka kasi atakihin ang Mama sa puso, kargo de konsensiya ko pa.
She also tried her best to calm herself. After a few seconds of taking deep breaths, she's ready to talk again.
"Please anak, don't do this..."
I don't know what to do anymore. Naaawa na ako sa Mama, at the same time nagegets ko na rin ang point niya. But this is my body, and this decision should be mine and mine alone.
But my thoughts were interrupted the moment my mom opened her mouth.
"Kung ayaw mo talaga... Anak, just give birth to the child and I'll raise it as mine."
I just stood there. Mom always does whatever she says, and right now, I know she's dead serious. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko, pero alam kong sa loob loob ko ay ayoko talagang buhayin ang batang 'to.
Resulta lang ito ng pagiging gaga ko. I was so fucking curious about what it feels like that I tried it with a stranger.
Isa pa, kakagraduate ko lang ng college and I want to work for my own money. But now, how the fuck can I?
"SO, what's your plan?"
"I don't know either, Lei."
I didn't answer my mom earlier. Instead, lumabas ako't nakipagkita sa kaibigan ko. I think I just need opinions from others.
"Finding the father is not your option, huh?"
"Lei naman, nakakahiya na nga na nilayasan ko siya ng walang paalam."
"And that is totally normal for one night stands."
"Then, one night lang talaga dapat. That's all it is. What happens after ay problema ko na."
"Katangahan mo kase."
Our order came. I was looking forward to eating the carbonara in this café dahil paborito namin iyon ng Daddy ko, but guess what? Pagkalapag na pagkalapag ng waiter sa inorder ko at nang maamoy ko yung carbonara, I immediately felt like vomiting. Buti nalang at meron akong sapat na oras para makatakbo sa comfort room and puke my guts out.
It's the third time na sumuka ako ngayong araw, and I'm really not happy with it.
Pagbalik ko sa pwesto namin ay tinatanggal na ng waiter ang inorder kong carbonara at naorderan na 'ko ni Lei ng panibagong pagkain.
Such a bum, I liked that carbonara.
"You okay?"
"Obviously not. Kailangan ko na 'tong tanggalin sa katawan ko." I said and started eating.
"Don't talk so ill about that child, MC. Maybe he or she can change the world someday," she said as if she was getting tired of my complaints.
"I can change the world."
She took a deep breath bago sumubo ng pagkain niya. "Hindi mo man lang ba ico-consider yung offer ni tita Celeste?"
"I don't know."
"Pwede rin namang sa'kin mo nalang ibigay si baby, tutal wala naman akong balak mag asawa."
"Still no. It will take a fucking lot to convince me, Lei."
"But why? Bakit ayaw mong i-keep yung baby?"
"Well, for one, pregnancy can ruin my body. Besides, gusto kong magtrabaho."
"You can surely return your body to normal after giving birth. Mayaman ka, MC. Isa pa, siguradong 'di mo narin kailangan pang magwork dahil sa malaking negosyo ng pamilya niyo."
One thing that I'll never understand is kapag may kaya ang pamilya mo ay tingin ng ibang tao secured kana for your whole life. You can never guess what is going to happen in the future. What if our business goes bankrupt? Ibig sabihin ba no'n ay maghihirap na rin ako dahil wala nang inaasahan?
Hindi ba 'ko pwedeng mag upgrade? Gusto ko rin naman maging successful sa buhay, at hindi yung makikilala lang ako dahil sa pamilya ko. I also want to have a big name on my own, especially in business industry.
"Can you just let me eat? I'm eating for two." I said to close the topic.
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Can't Remember To Forget You
Roman d'amour"Who would've thought that doing something reckless for just one night could lead to one big problem?" MC thought. But little did she know that, that problem could lead into finding her soulmate.
