It's 1:35 in the morning, I can't sleep or move without feeling the need to break down or scream in anger and frustration, I can't believe my own mother ran out on me like that. I trusted her and thought she would actually help me and understand what I've been experiencing but no she RAN OUT!
I get out of bed sluggishly, wrapping my favourite soft, blue, hearted blanket that I've had since I was a baby and sit on the couch next to the window pulling my feet up onto the armrest so I can stare up to the ceiling. I start to slowly close my eyes and let my head rest on the back of the couch, slowly letting the sudden explosion of dreams take me away a different place.
I open my eyes slowly to find that I was in the back of the ambulance again but I was staring down at my own body. Every little, tiny breath I took, I would groan in pain, tightly clutching onto the lady's hand. Tears streaming from my hollow grey-blue eyes and blood seeped through the tightly bounded bandages the clung to my frail body.
I stare at every inch of my body, almost at the edge of crying to see how much damage was done to me.
" Ivy!" The lady spurts out in panic as my heartbeat starts to slow down and suddenly stop. The lady is slowly calming down but it looks like its almost impossible. She rips off my oxygen mask and places a new mask on my face with a air pump at the end, she starts squeezing the pump roughly as she tries to push are into my lungs but nothing worked. The man hands the lady a plastic red box that holds a DFB in it and places the rubber pads on the top left side of chest directly over my heart and the other pad just a little bit under my ribcage.
"One, two, three CLEAR! One, two, three, CLEAR!" I watch my body rise up and down as the DBF electrifies my body until my heart started beating again. I stare at my chest closely watching for any movement, I just watch closely. As I take a breath a stream of a white light lunges into my chest, a herd of voices fill up the van but the two paramedics do not seem to hear it. Only I can.
The voices get louder and higher in pitch as if someone was blowing a dog whistle in my ear. I couldn't stand it.
" STOP! STOP! SHUT UP! MAKE IT STOP!!" I scream at the top of my lungs as I clutch onto my ears and try so hard to block out the noise.
I look down at my body that lays on the stretcher to see it do the same thing but my body isn't just trying to avoid the voices, my body is trying to push away the pain, you can see the agony in my eyes and the distress they hold, the paramedics are doing nothing to help they're just sitting there staring down at my body licking their cracked lips. Their eyes are black and their faces are bursting out with veins, they snap their mouths open with razor sharp teeth sticking out of their mouth in every direction.
" ARGGH! HELP ME! HELP ME!" I scream out, my fists are banging against the door trying so hard to bust open the door but nothing happened, the two paramedic demons turned to me and leaped to their feet slowly closing in on me.
" IVY! Ivy! Wake up!"
"Ivy, open your eyes!" I hear a male voice drag me into conciousness and shake my shoulders roughly. I open my eyes quickly and spring up from the couch, standing over my body was a boy with dirty, blonde hair and butter scottch eyes. WAIT! Butter scottch eyes.... Aaron!
" You." I point my finger at Aaron. " You get away from me." I move away from the monster but I was still on the bloody couch and Aaron was fucking blocking me from the rest of the room.
" Please don't try and run Ivy, can you please listen to me." I raised my leg and kicked in the stomach, he groans in pain and falls to his knees but does nothing. He looks down to the ground and sobs pulling his arms around his stomach with tears escaping from his eyes.
" Look Ivy, I'm sorry I know you didn't deserved to be stabbed by me and you don't deserve to be in here trying to recover from that horrific scene that was made by ME three years ago. I came here to say I was sorry and I regret what I did. But most of all I just want to say." Aaron stops at mid sentence and places his hand on my face, pressing his lips against mine. I quickly push away and slap Aaron across the face, I'm really confused right now because just three years ago Aaron attacked me and stabbed me til I was almost dead and now he's confessing his love and regret to me!
"What do you think you're doing?!" I spit out, Aaron looks up to me and sighs nodding his head.
"I'm doing the most stupidest and insane thing that will never work." I take a deep breath and brush my hair from my face grunting in frustration.
"Ivy, I know this is stupid to say but..... I love you." I laugh quietly and look up to Aaron with a small smile on my face, really he can not just say that.
"Aaron, I know you regret stabbing me and ruining my life but you can't just come her to me and kiss me and confess your love to me... Do you really expect my to believe you?" I ask.
"No, I thought I could try though." He breathes out.
"Well Aaron, you thought wrong."
"Then how can I prove to you that I love you Ivy?" He asks.
"Prove it." Aaron doesn't smile, he just nods and gets to his feet leans down gently kisses my forehead, whispering something in my ear.
"I promise to prove you and protect you as if you were my own life, I will never hurt you again." He gets up and walks out the room closing the door behind him.
Did I just say to Aaron Cole my enemy that he can prove to me he loves me? Yes I have, oh no.
I'd be god damned
