Benrius: Struggles

Feelings

Darius's POV:

I've always liked Ben. As a friend. But ever since he returned after everyone thought he was dead, I've seen him as more than a friend. I don't know. I'm being silly. He'll never like me. I'm so stupid.

Ben's POV:

This afternoon was strange. I came back after falling off the monorail. I don't know why but I was especially excited to see Darius again. We then went to collect fruit. I have been looking at Darius for a while now. It's strange.

After we came back from collecting fruit, I went to see Darius. He seemed sad about something. I keep telling him that it's not his fault that I fell. He won't listen. I sat down next to him. '' Hey bud what's up?'' He looked startled when I spoke. '' Nothing.'' I didn't believe him and I told him so. He wasn't in the mood for talking right now. I could tell.

Darius's POV:

Ben came over to talk to me. I looked in his beautiful blue eyes and heaved. I wish I could have the courage to tell him how I feel. But I'm so scared of what he and the others would think. He talked to me and I wanted him to stay but he left.

We all went to bed and I tried for a long time to go to sleep but I couldn't. I decided to go for a walk to clear my head. I grabbed a flashlight and went out. I walked towards the watering hole. I didn't know why but I just wanted to go there. I heard a noise behind me and stopped. I turned around and saw another flashlight. I sighed with relief. It was just one of the others. I was hoping it was Yaz or Sammy or maybe even.... Ben. No, not Ben. I looked closer to see who it was. It was Ben! 

I was about to say something to him to let him know I was there but then I heard what sounded like crying. I decided not to say anything and see what he did next. He seemed to be talking to himself. I couldn't hear everything he said but I did hear him say ''Why do I feel this way, he'll never like me. If I could just tell him how I felt. No, I'll keep it a secret. No-one can know.'' I was so confused by what he said.... but also hopeful. Was it me he was talking about? No it couldn't be. Or Kenji? I don't think it would be me. I decided I would talk to someone the next day. But not Ben.

Sorry about the short chapter. I'm just not in the mood for writing too much right now. Also I won't be posting another chapter of this until 01/03/23. I'm gonna be away for a few days and then working on this after. :)

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