Poems of an Angry Soul

CHANGE

flashbacks of a torturous choice

50 pills

a sick calm

anger

self hatred

can't breathe

run away

scared

hospital

the monster

sobbing

sleepless nights

I'm sorry

mom dad family

change me

take him away

care for me

long talks

meditation

better medication

home

sweet home

I fought for home

I fought for my family

now I fight for me

a fight for a life

a life filled with pain at every step

but this pain only tightens the grip

I may not be on the balcony

in fact I'm on the ledge

but I can hang forever

until my strength returns

to lift me from hell

and stand with myself

in peace