𝑴𝒚 𝑪𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝑩𝒂𝒍𝒍

Chapter III: Evening Breeze

The day I decided to move on from you, that never really came.

Except for Yan, I already had moved on from him.

I decided to just treasure these emotions I had for the both of you.

Looking back at it, I am pretty sure I learned a lot.

Alone in my bed, closed doors, feeling the evening breeze as I reminisce.

Here I am again, writing a story especially for you.

I remember when I confessed to you, I stopped looking at you because of the fear you would feel uncomfortable around me. Whenever I pass by your room, I would either just look straight or at the floor. I wanted to step away because I did not want you to feel off or weird.

You were tall, quite big, which I like, and that uniform of yours looked good on you. Meanwhile I look like shit HAHAHAHA.

I did not know what to react as sometimes you would come in our classroom and I was sitting at the back so most of the time I would see you right before you enter. But I would just pretend you do not exist, I even unfriended you once, yet you still accepted my friend request.

Which made me questioned myself,
"Why is he like this, despite of how bad I was treating him?"

When you went to our classroom, seeing that face of yours, made me felt so soft towards you I could not even dare to look you in the eyes with the fear I might burst to tears. I would just smile and nod along while attempting to steal a glance from you. I wanted to approach you, but I could not. All I could do was just sigh as the night gets deeper.

I wanted to hold your arm and ask you to stay for a while.

And say, "I'm sorry."

Some may think that I may be too fast but, I like you ever since we were freshmen. I just never really had the courage to say it to you in personal.

When I heard that special science students would be transferred to the main campus, it made my heart broke as I would no longer see you in school. But at the same time, it gave me the relief that at least I would no longer cause you trouble. Even so, we remained friends in our social media but never really talked.

As I write this story something came to my mind, and that is I never really looked at the small details that I missed during that time. It was you, that has always been in my mind. It was you, even though I ran to someone else with the hope you will try and get me into your arms. It was you, whom I never really gave the chance to explain their side.

It was you, all along...

You may have already a lover, but that does not matter.

At least, once in a lifetime, I had the chance to say this to you.

I may no longer be around once the sun departed,

At least the moon would not be alone as it is

with its stars.