𝑴𝒚 𝑪𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝑩𝒂𝒍𝒍

Chapter IV: Midnight Dream

 It was you...

It was all about you....

For years, I have thought it was you...........

And that caused me to hold on to that anchor of hope that maybe, one day you'll lift that up and sail with me, but I was wrong. It was only me who sailed in the stormy sea along with someone else's ship and that was my mistake.

Even though I had no idea what came into your mind when I said I liked you, I assumed that maybe the reason why you never replied is because you never felt the same way and for years, I thought I was fine with it.

I thought I was okay.

I thought that maybe it was not the time.

I thought maybe that's just how things are.

Not until, I started to reflect on these memories that are starting to set me free from the baggage's that for years I have carried in my chest. Little by little, there's a part of me saying that I should forgive myself from what happened in the past and move on. And you know, that somehow makes me smile and feel at ease because finally I am starting to move on from you.

As I am writing this down, it makes me feel lighter as I can finally say that I am ready to close this chapter of yours. The heavy anchor on my ship is starting to lift itself up and the stormy sea is starting to calm down.

I have never thought that this day would come, that I would feel at peace from you and from my past.

I have never thought that I would finally set those aside and move forward.

And I have never thought that I would write a short story about you.

It feels like a bittersweet moment but at the same time, I am proud of myself from how far I have become. Well, thanks to you I was able to write this one-of-a-kind short story and even though it contains bitterness, I would not deny that at some point in my life it made me happy.

You made me happy.

It took years for me to reach this day, and I am going to be honest that there were times that I thought I would not be able to witness this. It was a rough journey; I cannot even remember how many times I teared up because of this story. And finally, I can now lay down on my bed while my heart feels at peace, knowing that I am now ready to wake up in this dream.

So, before I leave and close this chapter, I just want to say thank you.

I wish nothing but the best to the both of you.

And I wish nothing but peace for the both of us.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, J.