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T H R E E

Gift-giving was most definitely my love language. Every time Hwang wasn't at home, I would go to the store and get little gifts, make him flowers,w0

or something along those lines. Hwang being there just for me was a big thing, I'd never had a boyfriend before him, so he was special to me.

I had made him an origami bouquet, and it had been ready right when he came back.

I heard a knock downstairs, so I rushed down to see Hwang. I opened the door and gave him a tight hug.

"You're pretty clingy, aren't you, miss," he said while chuckling.

"Says the one who decides to leave me every day," I say, with a pouty face.

"I'm sorry, I have to do the project in science. Who'd you get paired up with?"

"Felix."

"The devil? I feel bad for you, love," I looked up at him, raising a brow.

"What?" He asked, furrowing his brows.

"Nothing... Follow me!" I said, grabbing his hand and running up to my room.

We went up to my room, to see a paper flower bouquet sitting on my desk.

"You made this for me? You didn't have to," He said, taking the bouquet from my hands.

"I know, I chose to."

He smiled at me and told me that he was hungry and that he would make dinner for the day. Right when he said that, my phone started vibrating inside my pocket, indicating that someone was calling me.

"Hello?" I said, picking up the phone.

Hwang looked at me, tilting his head. There was silence around the whole house, even the birds knew better than to call out during this moment.

"Okay, bye... I love-" And the call ended. I looked down, putting on my best face, as I did... Every day.

"Let's go make dinner," I said. Hwang looked at me as if there was something wrong.

"What? Is there a bug on my face or something?"

"No, let's go."

We went downstairs to the kitchen, to make our food. I ended up sleeping right after dinner was done.

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

Monday morning. I get up, waking up Hwang in the process as well, and I ask him the question that I've been dying to know.

"Hwang, are you... Keeping any secrets from me?"

"No, why would I do that? You're my girlfriend after all."

"Oh, alright."

Like the same as every day, Hwnag and I came home, hand in hand and he ended up going to a friend's house. Sometimes, he'd even stay the night at the 'friend's'. Who is this friend anyway? I mean, I have the right to suspect him because he didn't even tell me that HE was the school 'playboy', not Felix. That's right, I found out. I asked my friends about it, too. And they'd all tell me that It was Hwang.

So why would he lie to me?

I didn't think much of it until he stopped acting like my boyfriend all of a sudden. He would stop holding hands in the hallway, and he wouldn't hug me after the 5th period.

One day, I decided to follow him after school. Yep, that's right. Felix was with me, as well. Our trio wasn't working anymore, so He wanted to know what was going on too.

"Seems like he's going to a sunflower field, I guess," Felix said to me. We were walking, almost right behind Hwang. He wasn't going to hear us because he's really stupid and had his headphones on, blasting who-knows-what music.

It was a few minutes away from the sunset, and we had arrived. Hwang had sat on a bench, looking like he was waiting for someone. And there they were. It was a girl, she had brown hair, and a dress on. I shrugged my shoulders, I didn't care if Hwangw was with girls, if we were gonna be in a relationship, we were gonna have to trust each other, right?

But they kissed. They fucking kissed.

"That asshole!" Felix said, almost getting up, but I stopped him. He looked at me with sincerity in his eyes. Tears swelled up in my eyes as I watched them from afar, Listening to their conversation. I let Felix hold me, and I cried. I cried like I was a hungry baby. I cried my heart out. I cried until there was nothing TO cry about.

"Fuck." Felix whispered, sending me chills. I got up, walking the opposite way. The way my home was. He had given me his jacket, it had gotten quite cold.

"Hey Rae, I'm sure it was all just a misunderstanding-"

"No! Im fucking sick of it! I'm sick of everyone using me for their own needs! I have 3 siblings that I had to take care of, and now I figure out that my mom's coming back with another baby! And guess what? I'm gonna be taking care of that child, I'm the one that's gonna be needing to be an at-home mom again because nobody can take care of their own needs! I'm so sick and tired of people! All of my siblings went with my parents while I had to stay at home with nobody with me to live up to the family name, get good grades, and act as if everything was okay! It's not! I come over here to find out that Hwang is over here cheating on me, and for who knows how long! I've been over here, smiling and acting like everything is alright but I only get about 5 minutes to myself every day, Hwang doesn't give a shit about me anymore, I have school and on the weekends I have to take care of my cousins because nobody can take care of their children for themselves! Why have a child if you can't take care of it? Why put all of YOUR pressure on ME? I'm a teenage girl who needs to be perfect, all A+'s but I have to be polite, I can't complain about anything because that's not mature, and I can't act like a 'guy' because that's not ladylike! I'm just so sick and tired of NOBODY being there for me!"

He stood there wide-eyed.

"Shit, sorry." I looked to the side avoiding his gaze. He put his hand on my chin, making me look at him.

"Did you tell anyone else?" I shake my head no.

He put his arm around me.

"Let's go home."