My Step-Brother Is A Stripper || Larry Stylinson

25- i miss you

"One hundred dollars and then I'm done," Louis excitedly told his best friend in the locker room.

"Well, I have.." Niall reached into his pockets and pulled out some bills. "Twenty dollars if you want," he said reaching out to his friend.

Louis laughed and shook his head "I don't need them, Nì" he replied "I still have one dance to do, I'll be able to earn 100 dollars"

Niall nodded and put the money back in his pocket. "Um, Louis?" Louis looked up and looked at Niall, gesturing for him to go on "how, um...how are you?" He asked him "You've been gone for three days, and you're still living in your old house, and then-"

"I'm fine" Louis interrupted him "in fact, I'm great"

Niall looked at him sadly and sat next to him "Were you able to talk to Harry?"

Louis bit his lip and shook his head "No, he- he avoids me" he replied in a low voice "but that's okay. I tricked him. I deserve it"

"What did Mark tell you?"

"He told me that Harry has become more withdrawn and cold, and he asked me why" replied the stripper, taking his shirt off "but other than that he didn't say anything, I think he understood that there is some kind of tension between the two of us , if you want to call it that" he said, putting the mask on "I have to go now" Louis left the locker room and Niall sighed.

Louis went dancing, and when he came back he started counting the money he had made. $134. Louis smiled and put them in his wallet, then went to his house.

The next day at school, Louis was walking in the corridor, when Zayn and Liam approached him, and Zayn slammed him against the lockers, but not too hard, because it didn't hurt him at all "You know, I really want to give you a punch, but Liam made me swear not to," Zayn said pointing a finger at him.

"You won't," Liam said, pushing Zayn away with one arm. "We're here to talk"

"Not me," said the Pakistani.

Liam rolled his eyes and looked at Zayn "yeah, you too" he said then turned back to Louis "Harry told us everything that happened"

"How can you betray him like that? What a horrible person are you! Did you want revenge for how he's treated you over the last few years? This is cruel, making fun of a person who has feelings for you like you did!"

"Harry has feelings for me?" Louis asked confused.

Zayn laughed sarcastically and hysterically "he's playing dumb now" he said then turned to Liam "please let me punch him. Even just a little one"

"No punching Zayn" he scolded and Zayn grunted, and turned to Louis "and you, don't play dumb"

"Guys, I'm not!" Louis exclaimed "I don't know what Harry told you, but I didn't play with him or his feelings, it wasn't my intention, ok?"

"Yeah? And why did you lie to him?" Zayn asserted.

"Because what was I supposed to do?" He asked Louis rhetorically "I couldn't tell him, or he would be pissed at me!"

"Have you ever even had feelings for Harry?"

"Of course i do, I love him!" Those words came out of his mouth without even meaning to. They weren't planned, they weren't built. They were natural. They were real. Louis opened his eyes in astonishment and disbelief. Had he really just said that?

Zayn opened his eyes in astonishment and took his finger off Louis "oh" he said in shock "well that goes in your favor but the fact is because of you now my best friend is sad and I haven't seen him smile in days now "

"Okay, listen to me" Louis asserted "I really care about Harry, and I could never play with his feelings. What I did was wrong, and I know, I should have told him it was me, but I was scared, because we were finally starting to get along, and I didn't want this to end" he said "Ineeded some money for my mother, I- I know Harry thinks I was playing him, and laughing at him behind his back, but I swear it's not true, I could never"

Zayn looked at Liam, who shrugged shaking his head, then looked back at Louis "Ok, I won't punch you then" he said with a smile "but if I find out you're lying to us, I swear I'll make you your life miserable"

"It's not true, he won't," Liam reassured him.

"Oh yes, I will" Zayn exclaimed "we're going to go talk to Harry now, don't mess around" Zayn and Liam left, and Louis walked back towards his classroom.

The days went by, and Harry continued to avoid Louis. The eldest had now lost hope. That day though, Louis wasn't thinking about Harry, for the first time in days, but about his mother. Louis had ordered new supplies for his mother days before, and the day before he had received a message from the company he had called, saying they had exchanged the broken things for new ones, and now Louis could finally go and talk to his mother without having to see a broken stone.

Louis walked for a few minutes, until he entered the cemetery, and went towards his mother's tombstone. When he saw her a tear fell from his eyes.

On her stone was a new photo of her mother, with a smile on her face. Louis sat next to the rock and touched it with his fingertips "Hello mom" he whispered "See? I managed to put everything back" he said pointing around. Louis sighed and looked at Johannah's photo. "I miss you so much," he told her, as more tears streamed down his cheeks.

Louis continued to talk to his mother as if she could actually hear him for hours. Louis didn't know if what he said was reaching her mother's ears, but he liked to think that she could hear him and watch him from up there, from the sky.

Louis wiped his tears with his shirt and sighed "there's one more thing I didn't tell you" he whispered, playing with his fingers "there's this guy, his name is Harry. I- it's a long story, but I betrayed his trust, and now he doesn't want to talk to me anymore" he continued "I think I love him, actually. I don't know, I've never been in love before, but when I was with him I was happier. I don't think he accepts himself, I don't think he accepts the part of himself that likes boys, and it makes him doubt and make him make bad choices, but I was managing to make him feel more comfortable with himself, I think." Louis looked up at the sky and pulled sniffle "I don't know what to do" he said in a whisper "if you were here you would have already told me what to do, but you're not here, and I don't know it anymore"

Louis stood up and stood in front of her photo "I don't know if you're listening, but I hope so" he said "I love you so much" Louis brought two fingers to his mouth and left a kiss on them. Then he brought those same two fingers up to Johannah's photo and placed them on top of it. "See you tomorrow mom" Louis left the cemetery and went back to his house.