Megan

Chapter 9

Meg POV

He was kissing me. Actual lips on mine, kissing. Was this just out of sympathy, he just felt sorry for me right? Why else would he be doing this? I push him away, both of us heavy breathing.
"Meg?"
I stand up and walk into the kitchen, leaning against the sink. I hear him follow me.
"I'm sorry if I overstepped"
I shake my head "you didn't"
He comes up behind me, gently turning me to look at him. A confused look on his face.
"What's wrong?"

"I don't want you to feel sorry for me Seb"
"You think I kissed you because I feel sorry for you?"
I nod "it's okay Seb I understand"
I try to walk away but his hand finds mine and pulls me close to him. He cups my cheeks "I don't feel sorry for you. Well I mean I do but I also think your incredibly strong and wonderful and have been through hell and are still standing. I kissed you because you've always been the one for me Meg. Even before all this, I was always enarmoured by you."
"Why?"
"Because your beautiful, kind and caring and you were always the one person I wanted to share everything with. When you walked away and out of my life, it was the worst day. I didn't know how I could carry on without you"

He leans his head against mine and strokes over my cheek bones.
"I'm so sorry Seb"
"You have nothing to be sorry for. But Meg.....now I have you back I'm not letting you go okay?"
I nod and he pulls my lips to his again, this time I allow my self to melt into it, I fully give myself over to him. His hands holding my face strongly but gently. Mine holding his waist and pulling him as close as I can. Once he pulls away, he smiles at me.
"I hope this means you feel the same"
I nod "I've loved you since the moment I met you.  I just never thought you'd would feel the same."

He smiles and kisses me again "I love you too"
He wraps his arms around me and holds me close.
"I won't ever let anyone hurt you ever again"
I nod and we just stand there holding one another. It's safe, it's peaceful and it's calm. It's what I need in my life. I've always needed Sebastian and right now in this moment I'm happy I decided to come here so we could reconnect.

"Let's get settled for bed okay? Do you still want me to stay with you?"
"Yes please"
"Okay, go get ready and I'll clean up and lock up"
I nod and lean up to kiss him once more before heading to the room. He comes in a few moment later and strips down. He climbs in and I lay on his chest, his fingers combing through my hair. Relaxing me.
"Seb?"
"Yeah?"
"Why did you pull away when I tried to kiss you before?"

He lets out a sad sigh and moves so he can look me in the eye.
"I pulled away because I didn't want you to feel like I was trying to push you into something before you were ready. You were going through so much and I didn't want you to feel bad if you changed your mind after wards. I didn't want you to regret anything"
I cup his cheeks "I would never regret you"
He smiles wide "I'm sorry I hurt you. I never wanted that. I had planned a big dinner and there was roses and everything the night you were attacked. I was going to tell you how I felt but obviously things didn't go the way I planned"

I can't help the tear the falls "I'm so sorry"
"You have to stop apologising. None of this is your fault." He wipes away my tears and kisses me softly.
"Now let's get some sleep. We have another long day tomorrow"
I nod "okay. Goodnight Seb" I say as we go back to our previous position.
"Goodnight Meg, I love you"
I smile "I love you too"