BSD ONE-SHOTS || SFW & NSFW

NAKAHARA. C - KING

I'm not a king.

" So , this is our new member? "

The melody that came out was truly beautiful. More beautiful then any other sound that I ever , more poisonous then any other poison , more soft then any other skins that I ever made a contact with , more passionate then any other fire crippling and growing bits by bits inside this tainted body I was cursed with.

Once upon a dream , when I saw you smile at the first time , the world finally stops to take a moment to breath. What I see is not just a person , what I see is the whole world. And that proves me enough to surely knows that she was the one who will take my tainted soul to the other side when the candles are gone out.

" Nice too meet you , Chuuya-kun. I'm (y/n) , (l/n) (y/n). Let's get along , shall we? "

She offered me her delicate hand. I took it. Sense of a mother's lullaby made it ways to my ear , as well as it's warming the inside of me with butterflies coming back again after a long gone. I was nervous , always was when she's there. With a flower field scent that could make anyone fall into a deep state of sleep and would woke up just to be bewitched again and again into an endless loop. She make me feel safe. She make me believe that I'm not a monster. She's my peace. She's my home.

I'm a fool , in fact.

The opened music box round and round again play the tune of a lullaby. Her favorite one. She was there with me when I'm alone. Both physically and verbally. As grateful as someone has finally reached their goal , I'm grateful meeting her. No distortion nor mistakes I could hear in the overflowing tune , just like her. Perfect in every way. A long journey we've been walk through each other , even if we were just friends.

Now , she has fallen into her slumbers , not bothering leaving my side as the music box keep continuing without any of us minding it. Breathing pattern in her individuality seems calm and somewhat with no fear of knowing that she could been killed in any second , nor a hint of fear of me. She rested her head on the table , the music box with a small statue of 2 kids standing beside each other , holding a flower between them with their hands on each other palms , rotating in place with a fresh green field background , between the both of us. 

Without my realization , the contacts between my lip and her forehead has already touched.

I pulled out in suprise and covered my mouth. Fortunately , she didn't wake up. If she did , she would know something is up , telling by my whole apple red facade. Tough , I didn't regret it for one second at all. Truly , if it's possible , I want her to fill what is an empty hole and fix what is broken. An eternal joyous for surely it will be if it all could be come true , one day.

And because of that ,

" (Y/n). . . you. . . "

Was this a dream or real life? Or was it a nightmare? Please , let this be a very bad dream just for once. Someone wake me up. Hurry. Please , I'm begging anyone to wake me up. Was this true? It can't be right?

Right?

Why am I not waking up yet?

" Chuuya. . . I'm sorry. . . "

I'm pleading anyone. Wake me up now.

Standing in front of me , is (y/n). A traitor that she is now. Now , if this isn't a dream , I have to choose. Someone that I vow myself to be with for the rest of my life , or the one that I vow myself to bond my blood too. All is left inside me now is give and whispering of doubt and guilt , also fear of the consequences of my action. Lights inside are now flickering , a strong wave of the sea is now coming to push me down onto the deepest dept of the sea itself , and not even my ability can help myself.

Was this punishment for all the life that I've take?

" Go. . . "

I have made my decision now. There's no turning back.

" Wha- "

" I said go. Go and don't ever turn your back "

I cut her off. I couldn't look at her. She wasn't supposed to see me like this. A moment of silence filling the tension between us. She wrapped her arms around my neck and whispered a small ' thank you ' with the unchanging tenderness in her voice. I returned it. But only for a quick seconds. Now , she has left. And I let her. I wouldn't forgive myself for taking her life.

I couldn't reach her.