Butterfly Bliss |h.s a.u|

|09| 11/14/2019

song of the chapter; lover by taylor swift

Harry

Life has been so freeing recently and that's all thanks to honeybee.

I finally feel as though that I can be who I am without then nagging from parents or society. I don't have to be Harry Styles, the son of John and Elizabeth Styles. The son that simply chose passion and happiness over money and the name.

My parents recently told me that they never expected to have a son who is a disgrace to the name. Asking me why I couldnt be like my brother or my sister. Wondering where they went wrong. I simply just had to tell them that I had no answers for them because nothing that I do will make them change their mind on me and my lifestyle. Reality is that I don't care what they think or what they say.

Just because I am an art teacher doesn't mean that I am any less of a person than them.

That is another reason why I decided to leave again. I don't regret it either.

I can't be someone who I am not. That is why I am the biggest advocate to my students of being who they truly are because I never got that opportunity in my life. That is until now.

Life has been not only freeing but magical.

Winnie and I have been great, at least I hope so. She is amazing and is truly such a blessing in disguise. As a hopeless romantic, I finally realized that maybe it's just not for me. I tried my hand at dating throughout the years, and it just wasn't for me. Giving up on love and all things dating my life became stagnant and I was fine with it. That was until she came into my life.

I realized that maybe love was something that I could have in life. Have someone to actually love me for me and that I can love back the same amount. This might be the hopeless romantic in me but, I am pretty sure Winnie is the person for me. Actually I am one hundred percent sure she is the one for me. I just hope I am the one for her.

We don't talk much about the future, we live in the present. We do what just feels right for ourselves and for each other. We just define societal norms and I am okay with that.

Today and tomorrow are teacher work days. Tomorrow is my mandatory day but I am still planning on going in to finish up this piece that I am working on. It's the first piece that I am willing to show Winnie but I want it to be perfect for her since she is the muse behind it all.

Since there are no students today I decided to just wear a tee shirt, jeans and my worn down dirty white vans. Quickly grabbing my things and heading down to my car.

Once I pull into the teacher parking lot I swipe my badge and head in straight to my room. Unlocking the door and turning the lights on I walk over to my desk to set my stuff down. Opening up my laptop to turn on music before I pull out my two sketchbooks so that I can get the details right.

I start getting things set up on a workstation before I go into my big closet to grab the piece that I am working on. Smiling at it I grab it and lay it down. Wrapping my apron around myself I get to work. There are only a few more things to do which are mainly smaller details.

I must have been at it for a few hours before I take a break and look at my phone. Winnie had texted me so I text her back.

From: my honeybee
Hey! I hope you have a less stressful day today than yesterday. I will see you tonight <33

To: my honeybee
It's going a bit better today. I will call you if I get a chance. xx

Yesterday was stressful because next Monday is the first massive due date when it comes to the senior projects. A lot of students wanted to ask for extensions or ask me if they can change what they are doing. Nothing too serious but me granting extensions meant being behind schedule when it comes to the final due date. Basically I am the one causing myself stress.