under our skin (sans x reader)

Thoughts

You feel kinda like you are floating - strange, weightless… everything is black, woah, this is weird, you feel nothing - are you conscious?? No- it's that feeling again! What the hell, you can't be dead - otherwise, you would be in this place forever, right? Wait- is this even a place? Where are you? You want to ask, but you can't. You can’t feel your body. You can't feel anything! You can't talk! You cant see- feel- hear! It's complete nothingness! Is this limbo? Are you between life and death?

This is so strange… You almost can't comprehend this.

Are you in a black hole? A void? Space between realities- thats scary… are black holes just openings in the universe to the space between realities??? Also… scary.

Agh! Enough science! You have to figure out how to get back!

But… why? What do you really have to go back to?

You have run away from home! Or - either that, or you are dreaming? But everything is so clear and painful.

Ah- even if it was a dream, it isn't as if you have any reason to go back. After all, you have no friends, and you can't pull through school, let alone keep a job… You're going to have a difficult life, and that's just too much for you. What makes it worse - you have the full capability to do whatever you want, but all you want to do is sleep life away.

Just… amazing… you may as well let go and fall in - "hslao?" You hear foggily, slowly regaining sense of your body. 

"Y/n? Can you wake up for me?" You hear.

Oh, oh, more to deal with…

You recognise the voice, and the events lowly return to memory. Maybe you saw wrong or heard wrong! Yeah… you open your eyes to see the goat lady yet again. Hmm, not a hallucination, you suppose.

You groan as you come to yet again, vision blurred for a moment before sharpening on the goat lady yet again.

You don't truly know how to react… This very well could be a hallucination. How does one differentiate between a hallucination and reality? You have been aware of a few instances of hallucinations - not in yourself, but experiences of others. You never really learned how one would tell reality from not, though.

After a beat, the lady seems to frown, "dear child, are you aware of yourself yet? Can you hear me? Can you tell me your name and the year again?"

"Are you… real? Are you aware that you are a goat??" You question numbly.

The goat seems to smile awkwardly at that, "I suppose my appearance would be quite confusing for you, wouldn't it?" She sighs. "Yes, I am, in fact, a goat-" as you say, and I am indeed real. If you are afraid you are seeing me due to delusion, then let me put your fears to rest." She states. "Now, can you repeat your name and the year?"

You nod, repeating the information, feeling a dull wave of emotion wave over you before subsiding, leaving you with an ache.

You have so many questions and feel so many types of ways you can't really comprehend, but yet you can't pick a single thing out.

"Good, how do you feel then, my child?" She questions.

"I… I have no idea."

"Oh dear, you have really been through a lot, haven't you? Well- how about physically - how does your body feel? Are you in any pain?"

You shake your head, looking off into space, brain unable to process anything currently. "I feel generally okay… I suppose - consideringly."

"I'm glad, I'd like to make sure you can move, but I don't think that's a good idea for you. Please be sure to stay as still as possible, I'll make some food for you to get better, ok?"