📍yellow brick estate - Peckham
11:45am. 11/02/23
i woke up with an add on snap. it was crasha .
i added him back fully aware this was definitely going to backfire and cause some problems.
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Crasha 🩸#YBE
crasha :
yo
lanii :
hey
crasha :
yu and Tappz doing a ting?
lanii:
nah y?😭😭
crasha :
saw ym yesterday still🤔
lanii:
oh
crasha :
step out of yard tho 😁
lanii:
okay gimme 5 seconds 🙄
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i put my hair in a low bun with a grey body suit .
shit where the fuck are my shoes.
i found a pair of sliders and put them on and ran outside.
"yo" he said . i saw him scan my face from head to toe . "hey" i said .
''so what, have u got into a skl yet?'' he said
''nahh, my mums looking for one at the moment'' i yawned .
''should come mine .. everyone goes there still" he said attempting to persuade me .
"what school do you go?" i said "elmswood" he said . "what the point , you don't even go school" i laughed , "man wants to be rich , not round neeks" he said scrolling through his iphone 6. "problem" he said .
"attitude" i kissed my teeth.
"what you want from shop" he said . "get me .. galaxy , Doritos and a pineapple bigga and.... jaw breakers pleaseeee" i put on my best smile and he agreed . "fat" he said . "your calling me fat .. woah say nun" i pretended to cry . he didn't respond .
we got home from the shops and vanessa was sitting there . "hey van , do you go elmswood?" i said . "yeah .. your coming?" she said looking at crasha then at me then back at the ground. "i'll see you around" i smiled at crasha and sat on the wall next to vanessa .
"you man are getting bare close" she said fiddling with her coat. "not even .. i don't want him don't worry" i laughed . " it's not that ... he wants you." she said struggling to hold eye contact . "what" i laughed . "no" i said attempting to make this conversation less awkward. "i heard him talking to one of the ybe olders" she said rolling her eyes .
"not a dat ting.. i like tappz" i sighed. Vanessa's eyes opened wide "babe..." she pointed behind me .
Tappz was standing with all the mandem including crasha .
fuck.
"Tapperz pulling young tings oi" one of the boys laughed . "ai shutup fhem" he said pissed , he spudded us both then walked to the park inside the estate . "fuckfuck" vanessa said. "crasha was there .." she looked like she saw a ghost . "TAPPZ HEARD ME SAY I LIKE HIM" i felt my stomach get tight .. we so dumb.
we walked outside to the park to go to vanessa's flat on the other side . i saw tappz stare at me whilst everyone was smoking.
"YO" he screamed after us . me and vanessa turned and walked over . "you man wanna smoke?" he said . "nah i don't smoke.." i said stepping behind vanessa
