Fell For My Surrogate

40. I Missed You ♥️

NAFEESAH POV

After "not" worrying about him till almost midnight, I managed to fall asleep. I was woken up by the shrill sound of my phone only to be snapped out of my hazy half asleep daze by Farhan's rough voice.

There was no hello, nothing. Just three simple words.

"I need you"

Really, he needs me after what he's making me go through. Well I'm not moving an inch. He should take care of his business himself.

Sometimes in life, substances happen that you can't explain. There's no rhyme or rational reason for them and no matter how hard you try, you can't figure out why you do the things you do.

The fact that I am standing in front of Farhan's door at 1am is one of those instances.

I entered with a Salam. He was still in bed but I could hear his faint groans. I moved closer to inspect him.

His eyes were closed but it didn't seem to me that he was sleeping. I moved my hand and touched his forehead but retracted it immediately because of the heat his body emitted.

" subhanallah I didn't know you were sick" I exclaimed before completely tearing the covers of him.

"Do you have any drug you can take right now?" I asked and he shook his head.

I decided to check my drawer for any antipyretic, I went back to my room. I did find one after rummaging through my drawers.

I went to the kitchen and made tea then went back to his room. I helped him sit with his back against the headboard and gave him the tea.

After what felt like hours, he finished the tea and handed me the cup. I gave him the drug and handed him a bottle of water.

"Thank you" he whispered after taking the drug and I nodded.

I got a bowl and half-filled it with water, then grabbed a clean towel. I started to dab the wet towel on his forehead in an attempt to help lower his temperature.

After a while, his temperature dropped back to normal. I was already tired and was dozing too when I felt him scoot back, his hand pulled me into him and he whispered " sleep " while covering me with the comforter.

My body stiffened a bit before I let out the breath I was holding and relaxed into him.

I could feel his breathing getting deeper, the steady rise and fall of his chest becoming more rhythmic as he drifted off.

I peered up to see his eyes closed, and just when I thought I couldn't be more in awe of him the serene sight of his relaxed features as he fell asleep had my chest wanting to collapse in on itself.

He looked so peaceful. All of the turmoil, pride, arrogance and hardness stripped from his face and I could do anything to preserve that.

I rested my head back against him, trying to savour this while I could.

"I missed you" he sighed out. It was so faint and muffled by sleep that I almost thought I was hearing things.

My blood felt like it freezed in my body and I held my breath, trying to process what I just heard. Those three words condemned every shred of doubt I had about the feelings I had for this man. I am in love with him and There's nothing more I could do to stop myself from Loving this man.

I missed you too Farhan... but I could never tell him that. I don't want him to freak out on me or worse shatter the little thread of hope I had left.

I don't know how things will be when he wakes up, I don't know how different things will be or if they'll stay exactly the same.

I knew things had changed for me but I don't  know if things had changed for him and laying there gave me time to worry about all the new problems that the future might bring.