Guilty Lawyer [Ren X Kyo ff]❗COMPLETED✔️

☑️XII - Resolution

Inside the bar, Kyo was drinking heavily yet he was not getting drunk at all. The last time that he drank alcohol with Ren, he could have never get dizzy if it was not because of the drug. He was thinking so hard he thought his head is going to explode. He looked at his phone and saw hundreds of missed calls coming from Ren. Every time the phone rings, he'd just stare at the screen and sigh shamefully. He didn't know how to face Ren Zotto. He was so guilty and ashamed that he misjudged the man he loved. All this time it was not Ren who was being insincere, it was him. All those times that he kept doubting and questioning Ren's feelings for him, he was the one overthinking. It was him who only thinks about revenge from the very beginning.

It was him who is guilty.

He was the one who was not able to move on from the past and about the lie he made and not Ren Zotto. It was all his fault. He took Ren's feelings for granted and now he kept evaluating himself if he still deserves Ren after what he did to him.

Just one apology. Even just one apology and say that you loved me even a bit, I am willing to forgive you and accept you.

Ren's words kept replaying inside his head. He thought, Can I really do that? Can I really be shameless and abuse his kindness? Can I really be selfish and act like a spoiled brat for Ren to fogive me?

"Won't that hurt my pride?" He asked. For a person like Kyo who always care about what other people think of him, pride has always been his priority. And that's what makes him worse in some aspects. Not all things involves pride in this world. Kyo lacked some of that mindset. He maybe a great guy for being smart, independent and brave, but no matter how wide thinker he was, he could never control every situation according to his own desires. Misjudging Ren Zotto was one of his biggest miscalculations. A part of him wanted to say, "I am just trying to protect myself from getting hurt in the end. Is it that bad to love yourself before anything else?"

And another part of his mind opposed, "It's already confirmed that he really loves you and was never planning nor plotting revenge against you the moment you two started dating."

It was his brain debating against his heart. What if his intuation was right? That Ren really did plan on tossing him in the end? That he was such a great actor for making Kyo fall hard for him.

But the issue had been cleared. Ren Zotto loves Kyo Kaneko and he wanted to be with him for his entire life.

"Stop thinking about revenge and give yourself some chance to be loved. If youll get hurt, you'll get hurt. At least you tried to be happy." He mumbled to himself.

"If he leaves you in the end. Accept it. At least you've learned"

"What's the point of falling inlove and getting hurt in the end?"

"A stupid question from a stupid person like me."

The lawyer believed he's gone mad for talking to himself nonstop.

Kyo chuckled in vain and crouched his head on the table, "But I want him back"

He looked at his phone and it started ringing again. His heart palpitated even louder. His hand was trembling when he decided to answer it this time.

"..." Kyo didn't say a word. He didn't know what to say nor what to do. He heard a very long sigh on the other line.

"Finally you answered... *sniffs* where are you right now? *scoffs*" Ren's tired voice made Kyo's chest throb. He could hear Ren's silent cries and grief.

"I'm fucking worried here. Just tell me that you're not in some wierd places with bastards surrounding you. I promise I won't go to find you. Just please tell me that you're in a safe place." Ren sniffed on the other line while stopping himself from crying.