Luke's POV
I fucked up. I let her like me. Shit. Whats worse, I like the bitch right back. Now, I have a mission. I will make her hate me. She can't love me. So now she won't. She can't walk into my life. She can't have my problems. She won't get hurt, She won't suffer, She won't break because of me. I try to think of the bad things about her, She smiles to much. She bites her lip so much. She laughs to loud. But then I think about all of the good things about her bad things. I love her smiles. I melt when she bites her lips. I laugh when she laughs. God whats wrong with me?
My mind is spinning all the way home. Then I am reminded of what I said to her,
You can't go I would miss you. Damn I am a fucking idiot. I walk up to my house and jam my key in the lock and stomp into the house. "Take a chill pill
ass hole!" My dad screams at me. I looked up at him. "Where's Mom?" I hated leaving them alone. "How the hell do I know? The bitch is probably in her room popping more pills. I stare at him in complete anger. "Don't call my Mom a bitch you insensitive asshole." I smirk as I see the veins in his head rise. "You little fuck get over here and get what you deserve. "Fuck you asshole! I'm leaving with Mom so she can get you out of her mind." And I went to my parents room and locked the door.
I turn around and I look around and I don't see my mother. "Mom?" She is not in the bed. "Mom?" I hear a sob in the master bathroom. I knock on the door and she did not open. "MOM!" I scream at the door. "Go away please!" I hear her say between sobs. "OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!" "NO YOU CAN'T SEE ME LIKE THIS!" Without another word I kicked down the door. Mom screamed and
I saw the blade.Her bloody wrist stared at me. I dropped to my knees and took my mom's hand. "Mom, you promised that you wouldn't do this again." She wiped a tear from her eye. " I'm sorry. But its hard." I stood up and grabbed the bandages and wrapped her arm, feeling her flinch as I touched the cuts. "I love you Mom." " You can't possibly know how much I love you." I walked to her closet and grabbed a long sleeved shirt and handed it to her. I waited for her to get changed and when she got out we climbed out the window and saw a movie. As we left the movie and climbed back in the window I put Mom to bed.
When I got to my own bed my last thought before I went to sleep was,
This is why she can't love me.
A/N Hope you liked this chapter. So so so so sorry if I offended you with Luke's mom cutting herself. If you cut or you are thinking about it please don't do it. I love you all and I will tell you to find at least one reason to love yourself.
