If You Can't Hang

Four

Reagan

  Today I am meeting Sky at his house to go swimming. I am so nervous about this. I really like maybe in love with him. He is so beautiful in every way. I hope I don’t get a hard on .
I got my change of clothes for after the swim. I got to Sky’s house and he answered the door.
“ Hey Rea I see you found the place. Come in.” He says holding the door open. Sky hugs me and kisses my cheek.
“ yea it was easy to fined but why was your gate open?” I asked
“ I knew you was coming so I had it open for you.” Sky says with a blush.
He leads me to the pool outside. They have two of them. One is inside with hot tub and the other is outside.
“ are you ready to swim?” Sky asked.
“ sure or we can just sit on the edge and hang out for a few.” I say.
I sat down put my feet in the water waiting for Sky.
“ how’s classes going?” I asked as he sat down.
“ good and I made the deans list last semester and I know I will this time again. I’m just ready for school to be done but I still have another year.” He says
“ I was the same way until I graduate couple weeks ago. “ I replied.
“ why did you graduate late?” Sky asked as he lit a cigarette. I wonder how long he has been smoking.
“ I wanted a break from school and travel to Italy. I needed to clear my head before school.” I say.
“ how long have you been smoking?” I asked. He blew out the smoke to answer.
“ sixteen that’s when my depression was bad. I was standing on my balcony outside of my room and dad came in and saw me with a cigarette in my hand. After I explained he was very understanding with this whole thing. He said he rather I smoke cigarettes than doing drugs.” Sky says
“ how did you get it?” Lavender bought them for him at first then dad did.”  That must be Blue Sky’s twin.
“ Hey blue, what you up too “ Sky asked
“not much I just got home and saw you was out here.” Blue says
“ Blue this is Reagan. He is our dads assistant. Sky says blushing.
“ nice to finally meet you. I heard a lot about you and not from Sky either.” Blue says laughing.
“ I’m guessing Skylar talks about me a lot?” I asked. Why would he talk about me? Well at least he likes me.
“ well I have to go to work. I’ll see you later big brother. Bye Reagan take care of my twin.” Blue says as he kisses Sky’s cheek.
“ Blue just friends.” He says
“ from where I’m sitting no its not.” He says laughing while walking away.
“ love you.” Sky hollers out
“ love you too.” Blue yells.
“ I’m three minutes older than him incase you was wondering.” Sky says.
We got in the water and played around for a bit then got in the hot tub.
“ Reagan?” He asked shyly
“ yea?” I answer giving him my full attention. He leans in and kisses me. Just a small one but it was so sweet. He has a blush on his face.
“ I enjoyed that.” I say.
“ me too.” He replied with a smile. His smile is so beautiful just like him.
We got out of the hot tub and showed me where the showers were in the beach house.
“ I’m heading home ill talk to you tonight ok?” I say
“ ok drive safe.” He replies.
“ I will.” I replied I hugged him and softly kiss his lips. I fell like this is love and I’m in love with him but it can’t be.
I get in my mustang and head to my apartment to let smokey outside. I sent Sky a text letting him know I was home and sent him a photo of me and smokey.
After just spending two hours on the phone with my parents I got another shower and go to bed. I was thinking about Sky and all his glory. He has snake bites, nipples pierced, few tattoos and gorgeous tan. Makes his skin look like the sun came down and kissed it. I love it he wears eye makeup. Reminds me of Ronnie Radke when he did the video of The drug in me is you. He looked like an nineteen eighties rockers with make up.  On Sky it makes him look beautiful. When he saw me looking at his arms he told me what happened. I didn’t want him to know his dad already told me. I felt honored that he told me since he trust me. I want to ask him out on a date but I don’t know if he’s ready. I spent most of the day touching him in some way because it felt like I had too. I’ll wait and see what the future holds. I just wish I didn’t have to leave him. I was hoping he would ask me to stay. I know he just got out of a four year relationship but I can’t help it. I need him in my arms.

   Sky
  Reagan just left for the night and I so badly wanted him to stay. I know I just broke up with my cheating boyfriend but I can’t help it. I feel different with him.           When I first walked into the studio to talk to dad that’s when my heart stopped. He was so sexy and his voice matches. When I saw his bright blue eyes I was hooked. Dad told me to go in the booth and play Iris. When I did he was recording me doing so. I got so shy when he complimented me on the song.
When I got the courage to kiss him I didn’t want it to go to far. His lips are so soft so amazing I can’t help it. I was trying to find ways to touch him but I think he was too. Reagan is so patient with me and let’s me do things at my own pace. To be honest I’m not sure if I want to go slow and wait. Maybe I’ll ask him on a date tomorrow. He knows I’m off work. I will see I guess.
“ Hey baby boy.” I hear dad say as he sat down next to me on the couch.
“ Hey daddy.” I replied
“ you only call me that when something is going on in your head.” He says. I shrugged my shoulders at him.
“ Hey sweetie?” Dad hollers for mom.
“ yea love?” Mom answers.
“ will you grab me and Sky a beer please?” Dad asked. He loves my mom and my mom loves him. I light up a cigarette while mom hands me a beer.
“ here you go boys. I love you both.” Mom says handing us our beers while kissing me on the head and dad on his lips.
“ what’s up baby boy?” Dad speaks
“ nothing really. I know I just broke up with Cruz but there’s something about Reagan that keeps me drawn to him.” I say
“ honey” Dad says putting his hand on my knee.
“ Blue told me how you both look at each other and I saw the kiss you gave him. He’s in love with you. I know it and your mom knows it. There’s no timeline when you fall in love with someone.” He says then drinks his beer.
“ I know dad but I was with Cruz for four years. How can I move on that fast?” I asked
“ That’s easy you wasn’t in love with him. Yes you loved him but wasn’t in love. Somehow your heart knew that and was saving himself for a real love.” Dad says.
“ yea that makes sense. He was my first real boyfriend. It took me three months to trust him and almost a year to sleep with him. Now I meet Reagan it all feels so surreal. I have feelings I’m not sure what they are.” I say taking a sip then my twin comes in the door sits on my lap and takes a puff off my cigarette.
“ Hey twin.” I say handing him my beer he hands me the cigarette back.
“ you two are so weird. If you wasn’t straight I would think you was sleeping together.” Dad says.
“ ew dad don’t say things like that.” Me and blue say in unison.
“ think about what I said ok?” Dad asked getting up.
“ I will I promise.” I replied.
I gave Blue the run down on what we talked about. I got another shower and went to bed. Let’s just say Reagans sexy body was on my mind.