Revelations

Chapter six

AN: *sighs* Yaoi manga is truly a wonderful thing... <3

"CIEEEEEEEEELLL!!!", squeals a delighted Elizabeth, as she runs at the Earl, full force.
The boy tenses in her grasp, silently pleading that Sebastian will help and get her off of him.
The butler does just that, by vanishing and instantly reappearing with a tray full of cupcakes, and smiles over at Ciel.
'Thank you so much, Sebastian', the Earl thinks.
'You are most welcome, Young Master'
Elizabeth seems to be looking between the two of them, a confused look on her face.
She stares at Ciel.
"Are we going to eat or just stand here?", she asks.
The demonic butler laughs at that, and offers a vanilla sprinkled cupcake to the young girl.
She accepts it immediately, gobbling it down in a way that makes both butler and master cringe.
"Uh, would you care for another one?", Sebastian asks, wishing that he hadn't.
Elizabeth nods and grabs another cupcake off the three-tiered serving tray Sebastian's still holding and gobbles that one down, too.
Eventually though, after Ciel's future wife has inhaled 10 of the confectionaries, she complains about now having a stomach-ache and then gets Paula her maid, to lead her back to her carriage, her face extremely pale and looking like she will hurl onto her expensive dress at any second.
Once she's gone, Sebastian turns to look at Ciel, an undeniable grin slowly spreading across his face.
But, his master doesn't return the smile, rather he glares at him.
"What's wrong, my Little Lord?"
Ciel sighs and points at the half-eaten tray of cupcakes still in the butler's hand.
"Did you really have to do that?"
"Whatever do you mean?", Sebastian asks, innocently cocking his head to one side.
The boy slaps a hand against his face and retreats quickly upstairs, before the demon can stop him.
Honestly, he had thought that the whole plan of Sebastian's was funny, but for some reason, he could not bring himself to admit that, at least, not out loud.
He hated showing any sort of weakness near his butler.
Hated the actual thought of admitting he has a weakness for him.
That he thinks-no knows-that he's 100% head-over-heels in love with Sebastian Michaelis, the demon who gave him another chance at life after the fire...
'But, why?', Ciel thinks, not even caring if the butler hears his thoughts, anymore.
'Why must it be him? Why can I not just get over him and try to work out things with Lizzy? Why must I feel this way...towards him...another man-no, not a man exactly, more like another being. A dem-'
"Young Master, may I come in? I think we need to talk..."
At first, Ciel Phantomhive thinks that he's hearing the demon's thoughts again, ricocheting back to him, but then he hears the sound of knocking his bedroom door, and knows that Sebastian's actually talking to him.
He sighs, going over to sit in on the edge of his bed, bringing his knees up to his chest.
'Why must my heart beat so? After all, it's only Sebastian...'
But, the Earl knows that his thoughts are stupid, even as he says them.
The door finally opens and unlike before, when Sebastian looks in, Ciel is not standing there, in greeting.
The butler runs a gloved-hand through his raven black hair and sighs, as he thinks of what to say.
Should he tell him the truth? That he heard every word and that he feels the same about the boy?
'No!', Sebastian thinks, mentally scolding himself.
He can't just tell Ciel that he has been hiding his true feelings for the boy, a little over a year now?
He can't admit to something that drastic-that unnerving.
'What would the others think? They'd think I was a creep for wanting to take this boy's innocence, for wanting to love him the way he seems to have now lost... Could I live with myself if I did tell him and then he rejected me?'
Sebastian knows the answer to that, without a doubt.
He could not.
It just wouldn't be possible.
Ciel suddenly clears his throat, looking at the demon, who is now standing before him, a troubled look etched on his face.
The tension between the two, is palpable, it's like cutting through butter.
Frozen butter.
Butter that's been in an icehouse for thousands of years and is now, only being cut open for the first time.
But somehow, the boy finds the courage to speak first.
"I am guessing that you have a few unanswered questions."
Whether Sebastian nods, Ciel is unclear because he's not looking at him as he talks.
"Yes, Young Master. Indeed I do.", Sebastian says, as a sort of confirmation and cue to continue.
The Earl rubs his hands nervously against his exposed legs, wishing he'd worn more.
"As you are aware, for the past while, I have been acting a little off."
Sebastian looks suddenly at the boy, questioningly.
"A little? Forgive me Young Master, but you massacred the cake I made you and stared off at Finny in the garden as if he were the very sun himself! I think that qualifies as more than 'a little' bit off, don't you agree?"
In reply, Ciel glares at the demon.
"So, anyway, I guess you want to know the truth...very well, I will stop this game I have been playing with you, and just come out and say it..."
Sebastian looks down at the boy, curious.
"Young Master, what are you getting a-"
"I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU SEBASTIAN, OKAY?! THAT'S THE BIG SECRET, THE REASON WHY I HAVE BEEN ACTING SO VERY STRANGE! I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, DEMON, AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT!"
The butler doesn't say anything, just stands there, eyes wide and mouth agape.
Ciel tries not to look at him, but now that he's admitted to being in love with Sebastian, he finds it extremely difficult to take his eyes off him.
Finally, after what seems like forever, Sebastian kneels down so that he is eye-level with his master.
He smirks at Ciel, before leaning in and stealing his lips in a kiss.
When he pulls away, his eyes are bright and staring at Ciel with a look that can be only described as love.
"I hate myself for it, too...", he whispers into the boy's ear, leaning down to kiss him, again.