Help me - A Twilight Fanfiction

13 - school - Carlisle & olive pov

~ Carlisle pov ~

We hear everything, the whole conversation. I had my other kids act asleep in their rooms until 6 am at the earliest so olive didn't get suspicious but I know we out of everyone are the most suspicious about olive.

Olive and Rosalie come down the stairs together and enter the main room which is where me and Esme are sat.

"Hey olive have you had breakfast?" I ask but I don't get a responsibility I get a nod.
"Did you have tea yesterday?" She nods her head again.
"Yes just chill out I'm fine!" She stops for a second. I find her outbursts a little odd.
"Sorry, I'm sorry." She says curling up on her seat on the sofa. I was to busy wracking my brain with ideas to get her to admit something but I can't think of anything so Esme replies instead.

"It's okay. How about we get you some food." Esme says. But she shakes her head shake my head.
"N-no it's fine I have eaten." Well that was definitely a lie.

Rosalie then mutters 'carlisle can I talk to you, upstairs please.' under her breath, obviously so olive can't here. So I think of an excuse.

"I'm just going to do a little work in my office if that's okay." I look around and they all nod. Causing me to stand up and head to the stairs.
"I'm going to the toilet" I hear my daughter announce before she stands up and follows just behind me up the stairs.

Once we get to my office I close my door over. "So Rosalie what's wrong?" I ask.
"It's olive." I nod and motion for her to carry on. "Well when she was putting her makeup on I noticed a res bruise forming on her cheek and then I offered to do some plaits in her hair. When I was on the second of the plates I saw a big bruise going across the width of her neck. It was fresh aswell. I could tell." He looks at me in suprise. "So I was just wondering why she was here this early anyway?"

"Well I don't really know why she was here but basically I had finished my shift and you know that park I drive past on the way home. I saw her on the bench. It was about four fifteen in the morning and I didn't know how long she had been out there for. But I could tell she was cold. So I offered for her to come back. I asked her why she was there but she made a shit excuse of 'going on a walk'." Rosalie nodded listening to me.
"Okay thank you. Well I should get back it's been five minutes." I nod and smile at her briefly before she stands up and leaves.

Once she leave I just sit at my desk and stare at my wall, trying to figure out what the hell is going on with her. And how in god's name I can sort it out.

After a while I decide to call Edward. I fill him in and he says he has changed his mind and is coming home immediately. He will be back for the start of second period so to call the school and let them know he is at an appointment.

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~ Rosalie pov ~

When I go back downstairs I see olive curled up in the corner of the sofa dozing off and Esme looking at her worriedly. Esme looks at me and motions for me to be quiet and I am.

When my sibling 'wake up' and come downstairs it is 7. 30 am. We leave for school in two different cars. Olive riding with me and Emmet in Edwards Volvo and Alice and jasper go in the jeep.

I sit in the back with olive and in the begging I try making conversation, but she is staring out of the window so out of it I just leave it. I have to nudge her to get her to snap back to reality.

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~ olives pov ~

I can barely hear Rosalie trying to make conversation with me. I sit staring out the car window lost in my thoughts. Everything else seems like a buzzing noise.

My thoughts:

. What's gonna happen to me tonight?
. Why me?
. I hate myself.
. It would be better if I were dead.
. I cause trouble for everyone.

"Hmh?" I quietly say when I snap into reality to someone nudging me. I see Rosalie and Emmett both giving me a worried look. "I'm fine, just tired." Tired has lots of meanings though. Tired of life, of living. Tired of school, but also tired of home.

Rosalie is in my first two classes but I don't pay any attention. Instead I am falling asleep or fantasising about cutting myself.

By the time it reached lunch I was done. But I had no where to go. My last lesson was biology. And it was only at lunch that I realised Edward was back. Weird, he didn't ride with any of us this morning.

I go to walk out of art, which is the only class I actually stayed awake in today so far. Art is also a class I share with Alice Cullen. So at the end of lesson she runs up to me, "you should come eat with us, olive." I laugh to myself, knowing full well I won't actually eat anything.

"Okay if your sure that's okay?" I double check and she nods and smiles happily. The cafeteria was packed by the time we got there. Packed and noisy. But we managed to make it to the Cullen's usual table. I take a seat in between Edward and Rosalie.

When the que died down a little we all stood to get food. I went with them so I didn't sit on a table on my own. They all grabbed a tray and put a few foods on. The smell made me want to throw up, and the thought of how many calories that is, I can't even.

"Are you not getting anything olive?" Emmett asks and I glare at him.
"No, I'm not hungry." I say most of them shrug and think nothing of it, but Rosalie pulls me aside.

"Hey I know the whole thing about patient confidentiality and everything. But Carlisle told me about the eating after everything other day, just so I could keep an eye on you. He wants me to make sure you try to eat. We care about you, you know." I roll my eyes.
"It's fine, I'm just not hungry." She looks at me.
"Just go grab something and if you don't want it you can bin it. Please?" I sigh.
"I don't have any money." I say looking at my feet. Embarrassed to admit it to her as she was well loaded.
"You can have some of my food then?" She tries.
"Look, thanks but no thanks. I'm not pushing myself. I have already eaten this week!" She nods. And instead of pushing me further we go take a seat at the table again.

Whilst they all talk my mind is being ambushed. Words and graphic images of blood and self harm. I want to relapse so bad.
"I-i have to go to the toilet, I'll be a few minutes." I lie.
"Wait, olive." I hear Edward say. I turn to look at him.
"Yes?" I say. He looks stunned.
"Erm... Nothing." I raise an eyebrow in suspicion and suddenly all the thoughts are gone. And I'm calm?

I don't understand but I sit back down. After lunch I have biology, and luckily Edward actually talked to me this lesson. Then the day was over. I walk out of school and down the parking lot. Turning back one more time to see Rosalie smile at me a little and alice wave frantically. I wave back a little more calm than Alice.

I have to stop because suddenly I have a big wave of dizziness hit me, and I black out. I don't hear or remember much but I remember a person saying my name a few times and sirens but not much before I pass out cold.