Do you know what it feels like to be alone in this big world?
I do... I don't know why I rush home after work. I don't have anyone to come home to. I eat every meal by myself. I go to bed alone, I wake up alone. No comes to see me. I'm always doing things for others but when I need someone the most I have no one.
See it's not really the life I chose. It's the life that was handed to me.
I've been that faithful wife, lover, mother, sister, and friend but in the end everyone walks away from me. Am I too much or not enough. Do I do too much or not enough. Maybe I'm just a toxic person and don't realize it. I have always been told there is someone for everyone. Really? I don't think there is. I think I was truly meant to be alone in this world. Everyone tells me I'm a nice person but that's it. Even when I thought I found someone, that best friend, that one person who felt like they completed me. I was wrong. Turns out even they didn't want me either and again walked away. So I'm once again left sitting on the sidelines watching everyone else being happy doing things I wish someone would do with me.
It's not easy being alone. But this is what was chosen for me.
