The only way is up

Chapter 6: wakey wakey, sunshine

Emma's POV

I heard a weird sound, and slowly opened my eyes. Ouch. I tried again but didn't succeed, then i realized it was a television. The sound was killing me but i didn't have the energie to stand up, and then again i couldn't stand up. Wait what? I forced myself to look around. Where the fuck am i? And why the fuck is my head hurting like a fucking is thrown against it. Then, i saw a boy next to me in bed. Fuck. He had brown-ish hair and his muscled arm was wrapped around my waist. Aha. That was why i couldn't stand up.
I gave the boy a better look, and then i remembered everything. FUCK FUCK FUCK. WHY THE FUCK am is so stupid??? It was my first time, and i let him take it? A boy i didn't even know well. What the fuck is wrong me. I wanted to leave. I couldn't fucking handle this. Is softly put his arm away, so he wouldn't wake up and then stood up. I grabbed al my clothes, put them on as fast as i could and ran outside. How could i be this stupid? My head was hurting me big time and i unlocked my vespa, i drove away and tears came up. Fuck you alcohol. No fuck yourself Emma. You fucking did this.

I came home and everyone was still asleep. I checked the time, 6 am. Wow. My parents probably went to bed early, and thought i would come back later. If i just go catch some sleep in my bed, they wouldn't even notice i wasn't home at night.
I walked upstairs, and without making a sound i openend the door of my room. "Em" i heard behind me. Fuck. I turned around and saw a sleepy Rosa, probably went to the bathroom. I asked her what's up and she asked where i was at night. I told her everything and cried myself to sleep in bed, as she tried to comfort me. She told me everyone makes mistakes and promised me not to tell mom and dad. I thanked her and slowly drift to sleep.