Life as We have never Known

Sunflowers

Khom lived by a moto, Kit said once it’s the most stupid thing he has ever heard, If he doesn’t have to show it, he doesn’t have to feel it..

This was causing a problem right now, because Khom has feelings for Baiboon and he cannot declare it or deny it, so for the past few month since Baiboon first moved in the house Baiboon has been in a limbo of signals from Khom.. signals he cannot decipher for the life of him and Hey.. Baiboon is smart.. but Khom is … neutral.. too neutral..

It all started when he came home one night to Baiboon washing dishes and Baiboon offered to make him dinner.. he has been craving the younger's presence.. like he was gravitating toward it.. like he was a sunflower and Baiboon was - well !! - the sun…

It took everything in him not to act on those temptations.. he had to remain professional, had to keep his distance because in his line of work, one mistake can cause damage that cannot be perceived. And well.. Baiboon is young, he should not be tinted with Khom… even if Khom actually has feelings for him.. he will just protect him.. protect him from this tinted world.. protect him from Khom himself if the need arises.

Khom did firmly believe that.. the day when Kim got kidnapped by Cherry.. Khom's mind was reeling.. if a slightly similar thing were to happen to Baiboon… he would… no… none of that … no need to put Baiboon through any of that.

The fact that Kim and Baiboon were close to begin with was terrifying Khom enough as it is, whatever happens to one might happen to the other and vice versa, not to mention that Kim's regard to personal safety is a joke.

Sometimes.. Khom was tempted to ask Kamol why … Why is he keeping Kim by his side.. Why make a target out of him? People like Kim and Baiboon have no business being around their likes.. he was so very tempted to just ask him why he would do that to him if he claims to love him.. it was what made him and the rest of the guys overly protective of Kim and Baiboon… they were too good and they cannot be tinted.. they cannot be harmed

It wasn't until Kamol told him about his retirement that Khom was shaken to his core.. so now that is how Kamol was going to prove his Love… and said love is making Kamol move mountains to protect.. he is willing to stand up to Ivan as well.. not only Ivan but his previous paramour  as well - Danil - who has wreaked havoc up and down when he realized what Kamol plans to do….

Kamol has always been impressive but now.. that was a new standard..

Ruj told Khom about the time he asked Kamol why he was quite cheerful nowadays, and Kamol’s answer was simply try to fall in love and you will know.. like how is that possible.. how is it possible to fall in love out of the blue like this, with someone like Kamol and Kim..  it wasn’t even emotional.. it was physical.. Kamol was attracted to Kim on a physical level.. how did that morph so fast to…. THIS !!

but Khom remembers what Day did.. DAY ! who was at some point Kim’s boyfriend.. but back then that didn’t make Day leave.. Itt did.. Itt came and then Day changed and wanted nothing to do with this life anymore.. He wanted to protect Itt .. not tint him..  not harm him... not to break his heart

Khom for the most part was lost, between seeing them fall in love and act on it and looking at Baiboon and knowing he cannot do that to him.. he was totally lost..

Baiboon doesn’t really need someone like Khom as a lover…

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it wasn’t until the Vacation that alarms started to ring in Khom’s head.. Baiboon is catching someone’s eyes and and said someone was acting on it.. acting on it like Khom cannot do..

he was jealous… he wanted to stack his claim.. but that would require admission and he cannot do that, at least not now.. not while everything is still raging fire like this..