Her Sinners (Somerville #1)

Chapter 49

Stevie's pov

"Lily's my sister."

A sudden unexplain emotion centers in my chest as I stare at all three of them.

Their eyes flashing with regret, that I had come across their secret meeting about me. I stand there in Sin's kitchen, completely astounded by the sheer fact that I had stumbled on something that I definitely shouldn't have heard.

Their remorse expressions making a sudden strange flip in my stomach become intolerable.

It's completely absurd, there is no way Lily is my sister. My father didn't cheat on my mother. He loved her. My mind trying to grasp this new information as my hands starting sweating. My heart, racing as I felt the palpitations of my unsteady heart beat.

I couldn't focus, my eyes shifting between all of them. They all rush toward me, as I starting to feel the effects of my panic attack.

"Hey, it's going to be alright." A deep voice whisper out. I couldn't tell who it is. I only could hear the blood rushing into my ears as every sound seems muffled. I couldn't place whose voice is speaking to me. I feel like I am drowning. My lungs trying to deeply get in air. Litttle back spots lining my eye sight, like dark ruinous stars that can swallow my consciousness. Someone sat me down on a chair gently.

"Here, place your head between your knees. It will help your breathing stabilize." Someone said as my head goes down between my knees, and sure enough. My lungs seem to be able to take in oxygen at a normal rate.

I breathe in slowly as my accelerated heart stabilizes to a normal thump thump in my chest.
As I take in a couple more deep breathes I finally raise my head.

Three sets of eyes look down at me with solemn expressions. Eyebrows furrow with alarming concerns. I have the urge to rub away the lines in their perfect sculpted faces, while the lingering symptoms of my anxiety dissipate.

Sin is squatting on his knees, as his sapphire eyes dark with concern ping me in my sit. "Better." His raspy deep voice speaks.

I nod my head, my joints feeling stiff from the unfortunate panic attack. "How did you know what to do."

He shrugs, his lips forming a thin line, "I used to have panic attacks alot as a kid. My mom taught me how to get through them."

The mention of his mom makes my eyes shoot wide from the information that I stumbled on in the kitchen after I woken up from the nap after Sin and I slept together.

I was so lost in thought by the aftermath of our sexual experience that I couldn't help, but want to track him down. I didn't mean to earsdrop on them, but hearing them say my name. I had a natural reaction to being curious as to what they were saying.

I didn't think they would be talking about the fact my father cheated on my mother with Sin's. There is absolutely no freaking way that could happen.

"You're lying." my tone sharp I narrow a glare at Sin. The anxiety long gone from the unfortunate news. I ignore the sadness I feel when his eyes lower with remorse. My irritation that he would spread such a vile accusation about my father rises, simmering low in my gut.

He shakes his head softly before peering up at me, his blue eyes red around the rim. "I am not. You father is Lily's father." Dispite his melancholy emotions surfacing, his tone not wavering as he says his truth.

My eyes hardening instantly, as I watch to see any indication that he is spilling lies about my dad, but none ever show. He stares up at me with guilt ridden eyes, and somewhat shame of knowing his mother fucked my father.

He knew this whole time, and not once thought to tell to me. My anger growing by the second. I jump up from the chair. The quickness of my motion making the chair slap back on the white tile floor. Making a loud noise penetrate the raging tension swell beneath me.

I grit my teeth, my jaw locking down hard as anger bubbles, fighting to lash out at him. "You knew! This whole fucking time you knew. And you didn't tell me!"

The loudness of my tone making him cringe. I am not sorry for raising my voice. "I am s-." He tries to speak, but I refuse to hear any more of his lies.

"Save it. You lied to me. Was this all some sort of joke? Fuck the new girl to get back at my dead father for screwing your mother." I accuse him.

He pins me with a glare of his own. "It isn't like that, and you know it." He grits out.

We stand off in a dominant stare off to see which one will break first, but fuck him. He kept this a secret all along. He knew and never fucking told me. That's what hurts. I thought we were starting to open up to one another. Than he does something like this. Keeping secrets, no one likes being kept in the dark. Especially if it happens to be about said person.

"Why don't we all just take a breather."

Heath's deep tone tranquil. It's almost comical from the tension me and Sin are expelling out at one another that Heath would be the saving grace of peace.

Yet I am not ready for peace, so I turn my accusing glare onto them. Heath and Beau standing side by side. The perfect adaptation of light and dark.

Beau's looking at the whole situation with an uncomfortable frown. His eyes shifting between us with concern. Heath seems at peace with the anger my body is ejecting at Sin, but his does have a glimmer of worry etched into his perfect brows.

"You guys knew too." I seethe, my hands on my hips as I point out their faults at not telling me either.

Both of them look at me with repentance. Their eyes guilt sticken. I couldn't help, but let out a sarcastic laugh. "Fuck all of you."

I hurry across the kitchen to the front door grabing my shoes and keys off the side table.

"Stevie wait. Just let us explain." Beau's voice lacing with sorrow. The gruffiness of his voice shakes from the sadden emotions rising up. I almost turn around to look at him, but I knew if I looked into his big green eyes. Red and glassy I would stay, and I couldn't be here any longer.

I just need some space. Being here will make me say more things I might regret, and that isn't good for anybody.

"I can't. I'm sorry." I whisper, my eyes filling with tears. I know they could hear the break in my voice, but I didn't stay any longer to hear what they say next.

I rush out of Sin's house into my car, speeding away. Once I make it a block down. The overwhelming emotions of today's events break through me as I sit at a stop sign, the tears finally falling down my cheeks.

I welcome them, the grief that my father is not here to clear up this accusation, and the betrayal that he could possibly do something like that to my mother. I hate that I acted so emotionally towards the guys.

I should have heard them out, but I couldn't break infront of them. It was all to much. I just need some time to think. I will finally hear them out once I have time to wrap my mind around what I just found out.

The overwhelming feelings pull at my heart. The ache heavy and full.

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Well someone is a drama queen lol jkjk- I live for the drama.

Hi my darlings, an update for you.
This is a smaller chapter, but not to worry the next few are extremely long.

See ya Friday! 😊