My Love: Amiyah's Story

Chapter 4- School Days

Dear Journal,
Today has felt like a stratify mess. It has been a simultaneously drug on in marathon to get through. High School was nerve-grating, and numbing today. Plus my period is on I hate period oh why Eve why did you have to disobey.

                        Love, Amiyah

The next morning I woke up to him staring at me while smiling. "Good morning baby", Marcus said in a husky voice. "Good morning handsome", I said trying not to yawn. "How did you sleep", he asked while yawning. "Great", I said still pretty tired as well. "Baby I'm gonna go get ready I'm busy today as well", he stated since we both heard a knock coming from his door. "Oh ok, I gotta get ready as well I got school.", I stated while getting up. "Bye baby cya Saturday, I'll try to put time in through the rest of the week I promise", he said desperately. "Bye see you then", I said trying to be understanding. The call ended causing me to fall back on the bed. I felt drained out but I knew I had to get up. Perfect attendance was just in a few weeks. I put a pillow over my face and screamed into it before taking it back off. Being startled by my dog Goldie, she made herself comfortable in my lap which made me somewhat more relaxed. I stroked her hair until 5:49 it was 5:42 when I started.

I got ready feeling like total shit but I managed to get through with it. Mom was at work and Matt was asleep so I had to make breakfast for myself. Since I still had a few minutes left I decided to make me a sandwich: two artisan rolls, bacon, scrambled eggs, and spinach with avocado toasts, with a small yogurt bowl and a matcha latte.

After finishing I cleaned up my mess and headed to school still drained out. I grabbed my shoes and keys before closing the door and locking it behind me. I got into my car listening to The Color Violet by Tory Lanez then listening to whatever the car wanted to play.

I walked into first period kinda hoping Marquis can make me feel somewhat better but he already had his head down trying to fall asleep. Not bothering him I just scrolled through social media until it was time for second period. I sat near the window looking out to the gloomy day but the day wasn't gloomy there was plenty of sunshine with no dullness in sight. I just sighed reminding myself that I'm the one who feels or even is gloomy.

At lunch

Viv, Char, Naomi, and 'I' were talking about god knows what I felt completely drained to the point I put my head down on the cafeteria's table not caring about the germs or anything. My thoughts I guess got the best of me since Char snapped me out of them. "Mya are you alright?", she asked pretty concerned. "Hello Darkness my old friend.", I mumbled looking down at my crocs. "Gloomy day?", Viv asked while rubbing my back. "Yes", I sighed trying to glance a smile to them. "Why?", Naomi asked now concerned as well. "Did he hurt you", Viv asked confused. "I swear to god if he did hurt you", Char aggressively said towards me. "No it's just my period", I said wincing from the cramps. "Here", Naomi said giving me pain killers. I grabbed them and took them while silencing thanking her.

Finally making it home I changed my pad for the fourth time of the day. 'At least the cramps are gone' I said to myself while taking my bag out then coming back to wash my hands. I went to my room and began watching 'The OA' on Netflix while eating snacks.

"Mya, is everything alright?", Matt asked concerned since I looked guessing terrible. "No it's that time of the month", I said annoyed pausing my show. "Oh good to know you're not doing anything.", Matt said while biting into one of his handful of grapes. "Marcus and I haven't even been together for a full month, and why would you think that?" I asked trying not to raise my voice at him. "Never mind I see you're not in the mood for jokes.", Matt said while plopping the rest of the few grapes into his mouth. "Yes I am not and what do you want?" I said while throwing one of my pillows at him. "Nothing just to see how my little sis is doing before I head to Caleb's.", Matt said with a smile. "Well now you checked up on me can I please alone and give me back my pillow.", I said annoyed. "Mood swings here you go Miss Amiyah", he huffed while handing my pillow. "Sorry just don't feel so well", I said while turning my show back on. Matt close the door behind him leaving me by myself.