A barrier, I felt it
Surrounding and parting me away with everybody's perceptions
I couldn't even grieve of how sad it is to stay
How lonely it feels when you have to pretend you are far from years away.
Not older in age but older in maturity
How can I show them my immaturity?
Of how I am really a newbie?
I get laughed at, mocked at, and ends up being told to shut up
Was this what I was hoping for?
To try to have the camaraderie I am longing for?
I have changed throughout this pandemic
Now, there's so much insecurities
At junior high, I coped with my crying self
Now, I felt like it's another round of teenage hormones
Just my ears, I can observe
How everybody could chatter and entertain themselves with gossips
What sense of belonging do I have?
I have nothing
Just a dependant heart at hand
Thinking back, I should just shut up
Be a listener at heart and observer at mind
But will never have the chance to express what's on my mind
Look at Facebook asking me the same
But when I think about it
Nothing is appropriate to say
Guess that just shows how friendless I am
No friends to share my hobbies
No friends to share my worries
No friends to share my victories
No friends to share habits
No one would ask how have I been
No one would talk how long its been
Since I've been to school yet still felt a distant pull
Let's just finish school
Then I won't have to see you anymore
I want to end my envious stares and downgrading mind
I felt it not healthy when it comes up to mind
How it drags my mood and how it fills my heart with woes
Let's just end it there
And keep this school year
Without any foes
With no outbursts that'll cause shame to self
And I'll live on for my next step of life to be dealt
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