(normal= person of the POV
italic= another person
bold= music lyrics)
TW: slight mentions of depression and murder attempt and homophobia
Y/N POV
My 18th birthday is coming next week, and i am SUPER excited about it, it'll be a home party but a big home party. im not just excited about the party, im super excited to announce to everybody that i am dating THE billie eilish, we've been dating for over a year in absolute secret. I must confess that im scared that people won't aprove it since i am 3 years younger than her. I decided to tell my family first so i scheduled a dinner at my favourite restaurant tonight.
Now it's around 5 pm and the dinner is scheduled for 7pm i decided to get ready, right when i walked to my bathroom i noticed billie already getting all tied up. Yes, we live togheter but my parents think i live alone.
"hi love, are you okay?" i said noticing her starting to fidget with her fingers and have some small ticks
"nervous, now i know what you felt when you were scared to meet my mom" i already met her mom, actually her whole family, i already knew them since i met billie by finneas, my older brother nick was his best friend and sometimes he used to hangout with finneas i would play barbies or something with billie. But when we got to announce we are dating was so different it felt like i was talking with someone i never talked to before.
"well you already know my parents and siblings so its not a big of a deal, the only thing is that Emily is coming too" i started to shake a bit just of the thought of emily, emily is my little sister, shes 16 and she is fucking annoying and hates me so much, she even tried to poison me one time with a salad full of hidden garlic, everybody knows that im severaly allergic to garlic, in other times she even handed me dirty water when i was sick and asked her for water, the fucking water was full of dead flies and some other dirty shit. She was literally the motive for my childhood and early teenage depression.
"you know ill be there to protect you baby, and nick will be there also and not to mention my entire family, mom, dad, finneas and even claudia" she said hugged me from the side and pulled me to her lap while she remained seated at the vanity stool
TIME SKIP DINNER TIME
well everybody has arrived and my family still thinks this is just a friends dinner, but the whole time emily kept saying i was rude to her and saying bad things about me to my girlfriend and her family, i already told them about my sister issues but i really hope none of them believe this is true, she is so fucking fake, even her hair is fake she literally dyed her brown hair to blonde when she was 10 to look like mine and my mom fucking allowed that, she really is the favourite child.
shes the most jealous person in this damn world
than i decided its time
"guys i have something to tell you all" i said and everybody on the table shut their mouths
" me and billie, we are dating!!!" i said and we held our hands up. i just heard clapping sounds from billie family side of the table and from nick then i heard my dad throwing his napkin on the table and yelling
"THIS IS AN DISAPPOINTMENT THATS ONE OF THE REASONS EMILY GETS MORE THIS THAN YOU, SHE FOLLOWS WHAT JESUS SAYS AND IS NOT AN ANNOYING ATTENTION SEEKER, I DO NOT APPROVE ANY OF THIS SHIT AND I JUST KNOW THIS IS A PHASE BECAUSE ALL YOU ARE IS UPSET THAT ANY MEN WANTS TO FUCK WITH YOU, THAT IS WHY YOU ARE "GAY" YOU JUST WANT ATTENTION AND WANT TO BE FUCKED"
he yelled and got away from the restaurant while grabbing my moms arm and pushing her togheter with him, i just felt my eyes well up with tears, then i felt billies soft arm around my body and i heard maggie saying sweets consolations while claudia got up from where she was and ran to my side hug me, while all of that chaos my brother tried to get up and go after my dad but finneas held him, and emily was just staring at us
" uh i dont get why you are so dramatic, Y/N its not like he is lying or telling you something knew, he literally reminds you about how much im the best child and you are just an disappoiment every week when he calls you" she said rolling her eyes. by now im just sobbing, i didnt get physically yelled at in YEARS and that gave me so many memories.
"he actually do that?" billie asked whispering to me while i just nodded, she knows that they call me every week and i often get some panic attacks afterwards but i think she never connected one thing to another
"well you should just go ahead with your depression, don't be cautious" Emily said and at this point I couldn't cry more I just felt anger, I got away from Billie and Claudia's arms and stood up in front of her
"don't be kind, don't forget that you committed murder attempt, I'm your crime"
"you push my buttons everytime"
"you got your finger on the trigger but the trigger finger is mine" i awnsered her and everybody on the table is shocked, I never confront my sister even though they always tell me to
then she approached me and put her hands on the necklace Billie gave me, and some jewelry's that I have
"silver dollar, golden flame" she said almost ripping my necklace away but I protected it
"Remember the dirty water, poison rain? go remember mom and daddy about your perfect murder take your aim" I said snapping at her
"yeah yeah they are probably the only people that are going to your shitty party, them and the dyke you belong to" she yelled at my face
" DONT PUT BILLIE IN THIS EMILY I don't belong to anyone but everybody knows my name" I said getting closer to her
"by the way, you've been uninvited cause all you say, are all the same things I did, copycat tryna cop my manor watch your back when you can't watch mine," I started touching her dress and said "copycat tryna cop my glamour" then I noticed a tear fall down her cheek "why so sad bunny? can't have mine"
"you, you are a fucking bitch and liar you are cold and everyone think that you calloused bitch" Emily said
"call me calloused, call me cold. Your italic, I'm in bold"
"YES I AM GOING TO YOUR FUCKING PARTY MOM IS GOING TO MAKE ME GO THERE, MAYBE PEOPLE THERE WILL ALSO REALIZE THAT IM BETTER THAN YOU, MAYBE I GET A NEW GIRLFRIEND THERE RIGHT BILLIE? NO ONE WANTS THIS COCKY PIECE OF GARBAGE"
Emily yelled, I decided to ignore the things she said about Billie
"call me cocky, watch your tone you better love me cause your just a clone" I yelled at her and left the restaurant frustrated and with tears falling from my eyes, I hate yelling but it was necessary
I just ran to our car and curled into a ball there and let the flashbacks consume me.....
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