Shawmila imagines inspired by stories I'm reading

Realization Part two

It had been 2 weeks since the last time Shawn and Camilla last saw each other.

The longest period of time They had gone without seeing each other.

This wasn't a decision the two made, though.

 She still thinks about the last time she saw Him when he told her he loved her for the 1st time before she left.

The thought of that moment made her smile, but it also terrified her.

Because although Her mother Might love her And just doesn't show it - Or shows it in her own twisted way, The last 2 people that showed Their love for her , died .

And one of them was her fault.

All because she had asked him to drive , knowing that he had just gotten his driver's license.

She should have just taken a cab

Maybe then he would still be alive

She felt a tear roll down her left cheek. , Quickly rubbing away any evidence that it had been there .

She stood up from where she sat on the floor of her bedroom.

She needed to get her feelings out.

The only way She knew how to do that was 

She picked up the All to familiar notebook That she used as her voice.

Underspoken words of guilt stuck in my throat 

 Salty tears running down my cheeks 

he kisses them away

He makes the smile. Reappear

He makes the laughs come out

He makes me feel deserving

He makes me feel love

A tear stains the page, She closes it quickly with a slam , resting her arms on her knees and sobs 

She needs Him

She needs the man she loves

She needs her shawn.

She stands up, Clinching her hands shut into fists.

Without thinking, she bounded into her mother's Bedroom.

", Mama." Her mother looks up from her book, a facial expression of complete and utter Shock Plastered on her features , she closes the book. Sitting up from the  laying position she was in And giving her daughter her full undivided attention.

Camila walks up to the bed her mother is currently Seated on and slams the book down

," I wrote a poem. Will you read it"?

Her mother nods quickly. ust happy to hear her daughter's voice again

Once she's done reading, She looks up at Her daughter Her expression full of anger

," You do not have a right to feel guilty. , Not after You're the one who put him in that car Just because you wanted to ride around".

 , " How can you say that with so much confidence When you didn't even ask me what happened"?

 ,"Because I know what happened! You were just being a Stupid teenager-"

," Oh So now i'm stupid , I'm stupid because Someone was Taking advantage of me And I wanted to get out of there before it got worse"?

The look on her mother's face changed. 

," Camila-'.

,"Don't, You've said enough", At this point Camila's Voice was  horse, Probably a side effect of not using her voice And then being so loud The 1st time she uses it again.