Things I Regret

1. Mr. Therapist

BRYNN

They say life doesn't always go as planned I can prove that because, here I am again in this white room, looking anywhere but at Mr. Asher, staring at the inspirational quotes on the walls like I haven't already memorized everything by heart.

I can literally recite everything word for word with my eyes closed. I pretend to be engrossed in what he is saying nodding and saying yes a few times to keep the conversation going, but I really haven't listened to any word he'd said in the last thirty minutes, I can hear the words he says, but my brain does not process anything he is saying, maybe or maybe not because of the fact that I'm thinking about what's going to happen next on my favourite series, but for real though does Ari find out that her bestfriend is secretly dating her brother or about the fact that her boyfriend is the mafia don.

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nyway what I'm also thinking about are "The Memories" a little melodramatic right, Yeah nothing new I get that alot, I can be so dramatic atimes I owe that bit to the countless of telenovelas I've watched,but long story short, a few
summers ago,I found out I had cancer, everything was so messy. I got scared I was going to die and lose everything if considering money not that much to part with. I got chemo and then got surgery which almost caused my death but thank God I recovered. My family was so worried for my life and now my older siblings have become more protective of me than they were before yay, perks of being the youngest.

I think the part where I almost died traumatised me so much I developed nightmares and flasbacks of the surgery, I was diagnosed with medical trauma so now guess who's got a therapist the one and only me "Brynn"! Lucky right. Almost immediately Mr.Asher snaps me out of my chain of taughts by calling my name.
"Brynn, Brynn do you understand?, you do know this isn't a one way thing, I'm you're therapist my job is to help you, I can't if you don't allow me to".

" Okay Mr. Therapist "

"I'm not Mr. Therapist, I'm Mr. Asher" . Whatever.
I nod as an answer and he dismisses me, I stand up and head over to the door, as I turn the door handle he repeats his earlier statement about wanting to help me. I mumble an ok and head out the door to the receptionist office, I look over at my mum and notice the dark bags under her eyes, she seems to have aged over the course of a two years and a few months the funny part is that she's just in her early forties.

When she found out I had cancer she put her acting career on hold for me, sometimes I feel like I made her go through shit shit should never have ever gone through, she truly is the best mum ever.
"So sweetie how was it? " she asks
"Good I guess " I answer"
" We got to cheer you up, you down for icecream". "Yes" I answer almost too enthusiastically.
She just smiles and we go to her car.

"So guess what" she begins while driving to the icecream parlour.
"What" I answer.
" I got a role" she screams. " Oh My Gosh, mum congratulations, I'm so happy for you". I say smiling. "I need details".

" I don't know I just a call from this big shot producer saying I'd be perfect role the lead role for his new movie".
"Wow, Mum you don't know how happy I am for you, you worked so hard for this".
"But are you okay with me taking the role, you do know I'll be quite busy? she asks
"Obviously I'm okay why would you think otherwise?"
" Just wanted to ask". she says obviously grinning.

We reach the icecream parlour and mum hands me her card to go pick up our order and get whatever I wanted to go with the icecream, I sure new I was getting the red velvet cupcakes.
When I head in I see a bunch of high school guys playing rock paper scissors, Weird, but it all makes sense when one of them with messy brownish black hair stands up in defeat while chuckling and says " So I'm going to be paying today. I stop eavesdropping and go to the counter to pick up my order, I pick up my order and the cupcakes.

As I turn to leave I bump straight into someone and knock their wallet down. "I'm so sorry" I mutter as I bend down to pick up their wallet, when I look up and see it's the guy from earlier, wow he is cute. He had the most beautiful green eyes I'd ever seen and a sharp jawline with light freckles dusting his nose Wow Brynn very nice way to think of a stranger, but any sympathy I feel for bumping into him is drained completely when he says. "Well that's a new way girls have tried to talk to me". "What The Heck, did I hear you right" I say still in shock at his audacity "Probably" he answers
" Wow, well it was nice meeting you Mr.cocky much, but I have to run" I say squinting my eyes at him as I walk off and roll my eyes. Boys can literally be so douchey sometimes.

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"Ahhh" I groan as I remember school is starting tomorrow.
Lucy my elder sister chuckles next to me probably about the way I'd groaned, we'd decided to watch a movie to pass time.
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You do know you can tell me whatever is going through you're head right, you know I hate seeing you sad. she says suddenly going serious.
"Ok" I start "You know how's schools starting tomorrow I'm kinda maybe just a tad bit nervous.

She raises her eyebrow knowingly. "Ok I'm hella nervous about tomorrow, what if I don't fit in anymore, what if everyone's forgotten abou...
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Shhh" she interrupts.

"Number one remember my first rule chin up head high, don't give a damn what people think about you you're perfect the way are and anyone who doesn't see that can fuck off " She says in a singsong voice. "and besides you were homeschooled by the best tutors and you beat cancer I think you can handle a little school."
"Thank you so much I really needed that" I say as I hug her
"Anytime" she says as she ruffles my curly hair.
"Hey" I say smiling as we turn to continue the watching the movie.

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After the movie I go to use the toilet and stop short when I catch my reflection in the mirror, my hair which used to reach my back is now resting on my shoulders.
I can't believe how much has changed, I used to be so happy now I'm just a ball of depression while being so insecure about myself. "Bree" my sister yells "Dinners ready" I put my hair in a scrunchie and head downstairs.

"No phones at the dinner table"
my mum says referring to Justin, Lucy's twin. He groans while putting it away.
"So Bree how was your session today? My dad askes. I remember when I used to get bullied for being half Nigerian, my dad met my mum in high school when he moved to America with his family. Whereas my mum is half Italian and half American, but I don't care about the bullying, the only thing that gets to my head are the occasional stares I get when I go the store with my mum. " Brynn" my dad calls snapping me out of my thoughts. "Yes" I answer, he raises his eyebrows as if to reask his previous question ."Umm yeah it went pretty well if you ask me". He just smiles at me and starts eating dinner.

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Bye Stay safe and remember you're perfect.

Danie XOXO❤