First love (taekook)

Chapter 2 ✨

*4 years ago*

"Tae are...are you ok with...doing that with a guy, don't you think it's gross." jimin asked me
"I don't know I have never done it with women and...this is the first time I am seeing 2 guys do it..." I said I was not flushed or nervous, I was more confused than nervous
"Do...do you...wanna try?" jimin hyung asked in a shy and flushed voice

We both were watching porn
It's not the first time we are doing this, we have quite often jacked off, watching porn on the computer together. It's normal for us

But today I tried watching gay porn and I believe it turned on jimin more than he could have imagined

"Sure..." I said with a smug on my face
"Why don't you go down and suck me like that guy." it was more of a command than a question
"I....." jimin was flushed by my question but I can tell I made him excited
"Dont lie to yourself hyung...look how hard you got when I asked you to suck on my crock "

He was ashamed of my comment and it turned him on even more
"Okay, " he said with a shy yet sly smile
"Good boy"

That is how my first time happened when I was 18

*3 years ago*

It was winter again
"What are you looking at? " I asked and y/n turned red
"Wh-who!! Is looking at you!!!!!" she yelled but it was obvious her eyes were on me

I took her hand and pulled her closer to me
"W-what are you doing..." she asked in quite a feminine voice
"Admiring beauty, " I said as I tugged a hair strand behind her hair
"B...beauty.."
"Yes" 'you look like him'
"Do you think I am beautiful?"
"Yes...I am jealous of your beauty you know "
'Why do you look exactly like him'

She took a step towards me and I didn't stop her
And we kissed

I never kissed jimin it was just a friend-with-benefits kind of relationship I had with him

The 2nd time I kissed someone was a "girl"
I was 19
She was 20
My senior in college...
And Koo's older sister

I didn't just date her cuz she looked like him
I liked her as an individual too
And I mistook that as love

*Back to present*

"Tae tae!!! Hyungie !!! Come out we will be late!!!" jungkook yelled
"I am sorry kookie, I was not able to find my novel, " I said as I ruffled his hair and we both started heading out of the apartment
"Which book are you reading now hyungie?"
"It's 'the 7 husbands of Evelyn Hugo "
"Ohhh I have heard about it... it's the one with that lesbian woman and her other love affairs...I didn't like it when I heard a bit about it "
"Why did u not like it?" I questioned my koo

"I mean why will she marry 7 times!!! And not love any single one of them!!!
Shouldn't she stick with the one she was in love with and not let her go? I mean if you truly love someone how can you sleep or marry someone else? " his innocent question reminded me of all my past mistakes and I felt ashamed
"You are right my bunny, but you know sometimes the person that you love, scares you...and you can not do anything except run away from them and make mistakes while doing so "

"I don't get it hyungie, how can someone that you love scare you ?" he said with his pouty lips. I looked at him and laughed
' I don't deserve a kind and simple-hearted person like you my love '
"That's ok... I wish you never experience that"
"Well is there any reason why you picked this book to read?" my koo asked
"Well there is a quote I read online which made me wanna read this "
"What was that quote"

" " I spent half of my life loving her and the other half hiding my love for her" "

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