Vent book (remake)

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(has blood, swear words , and mentions of killing)

I fucked up a lot with this girl I really cared about let's call her "A" she might read this and catch on but idc I don't.

A has been my best friend for a long time around 2-3 years and at that time I grew attached to her I promised myself that I would try not to hurt her in any way but I fucked it up I made her mad and now I lost someone dear to me that would prob never want to speak with me again bc I was so blind .

I hurt her and i would never forgive myself for hurting A i keep rereading old messages she sent me on this app and i really need to stop that-

Ima fucking cry i swear to godd i need to stop getting attached to people.

She commented on 1 of the chapters on the old ver on this and MF had me swaying my feet prob and all fucking calm-

Ik she would never want to speak with me again Ik DAMN well she hates my fucking guts now and if she were to stab me over and over again I deserve it I hurt her and in return she deserves to hurt me back she could kill me and I would let it happen I DERSERVE to bleed by A.

I loved her but I always hurt her and I don't know how or why ....

WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! WHY DO I HURT PEOPLE?! SOMEONE MAKE IT STOP I DONT WANNA HURT ANYONE! PLEASE?!

Take me out of this life if it means I would stop hurting her and people mostly her... she deserves better. Better than me I hope someone amazing comes into her life and makes her smile. Bc she deserves that in life she's a wonderful girl.

And I am a Nothing I am a background Character who should never be noticed or talked about I should be a forgotten Character frfr.