He doesn't understand me, he doesn't understand my fucked up brain and what hurts me deep down inside.
He tells me that he wants to make me happy and I know I can be happy again like I used to be.
Only he's not the person that can do that for me, he can't make me happy.
He doesn't get the family issues I go through or how when I start going down the rabbit hole of darkness I will shut down and refuse to let anyone inside. I guess you can say I will build my walls up a few bricks higher than what they used to be.
He doesn't understand me.
He says all the the thing anyone would want to hear, but i'm not just anyone. My brain isn't wired like his, he can tell me all of those wonderful things, but I will not and cannot believe the words he keeps telling me everyday.
He tells me he loves me which is fucked up, because he knows I can't speak those words back to him. How can he even love someone like me? I'm emotional, I shut myself away, I don't trust, i'm depressed and I have anxiety. How can you honestly love someone who can't love themselves? How can he love me when he doesn't even know me?
He doesn't understand me.
